A Prayer

My last post in 2004 will be to send out my thoughts and prayers to all the families who lost loved ones from the devastation in Asia. It's impossible to comprehend all these numbers that are reported, numbers that keep going up. As bad as I feel my life is at times, it is nothing compared to what they are going through on the other side of the world. It is a somber end to the year, but I hope and pray they will get through this tragedy.

Last Post of 2004?

Just waiting for my friends to finalize plans as to what we're doing tonight...hope they decide in the next 3 hours or else it's all pointless.

I went shopping today with Lily after lunch and she picked out a nice purple shirt from Mexx. I'll probably go back tomorrow (Metrotown is open New Year's Day from 11am-6pm!) because there are some things at Tommy Hilfiger I might get too. We'll see.

Whatever you all do tonight, be careful, and have a great one. Cheers to all.

The Phantom Returns

There are only 20.5 hours left in 2004 (at least for those of us on the West Coast). I haven't decided on concrete plans for New Year's Eve yet, so we'll see. Perhaps I'll go clubbing with Mei, or just relax at home.

I spent most of December 30 by myself. I went to see the movie version of The Phantom of the Opera and I must say I was quite impressed. I really loved the musical and didn't expect the movie version to be even close, but I was wrong. It was cool watching the spectacle on screen, and the actors did a reasonable job (although no one will ever come close to the original with Michael Crawford and Sarah Brightman). The new song at the end, "Learn to Be Lonely" was a very nice touch to a great movie. Yes, a few tears flowed during the movie. So I'm a sentimental fool.

I was so hungry at 2:30am I went out for pho at the 24-hour restaurant near my place. Now I'm back and probably ready for bed. Tiff, you must learn to sleep earlier.

Good night folks and if I don't update again in the next 20 hours, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Learn to Be Lonely

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You’ve always known your HEART was on its own

So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived life can be loved alone

"Learn to Be Lonely" -- Phantom of the Opera Soundtrack (movie)

Nothing Much

Pretty uneventful night in Coquitlam last night, the casino was busy for a while but died down at around 3am or so. Tonight I'm back at the Holiday Inn for a 7:45pm shift before two days off....which includes December 31!

Right now I don't have concrete plans for New Year's Eve, might go clubbing or karaoke with Mei (and perhaps Lily) or just have some quiet time. If I'm really silly I could call the casino and see if I can pick up a shift.

I must commence itinerary for employment....I bid you all adieu.

No Destiny Yet

Still no news on the floor manager position, so we'll see. I have the ugly 11pm-7am shift tomorrow (well, today December 28) in Coquitlam, perhaps I'll hear something then!

Meanwhile, much better news, I won the football pool at work this week! That's a nice $555 for me. There is one more week left in the season, meaning one more week until the overall prizes are determined. Right now I am in third place over all with 132 (first has 134, second has 133).... 1st place is $4000, 2nd place is $1500, 3rd place $750, 4th place $500. It's going to be close, wish me luck!

Destiny

I suspect I will find out something about the relief floor manager position. I have lost sleep wondering why Head Office would request that I apply, perhaps I am the most qualified based on my past experience. It's tough to speculate but I guess I will soon find out.

Work was hectic today, but somehow I managed to get through. If anything, I had to save a lot of people's asses tonight, there are supervisors who always manage to screw up somehow.

I'll be watching Oceans Twelve (or is it Oceans 12?) with Suzanne before a dreadful midnight shift. Then on Tuesday I'm going to old Coquitlam for an 11pm-7am shift. Hope it's not too cold for me.

Christmas Roundup

The casino was pretty dead so a lot of us were sent home early. My shift was supposed to be 8pm-4am but I was sent home at 12:45am! Well, it was time and a half anyways so I didn't lose a lot in wages.

No Boxing Day shopping for me, it's not worth the mayhem and craziness for a couple dollars in savings. It's silly to think that right now at 4 in the morning there are people lining up in front of A&B Sound. No thank you.

My Christmas presents consisted mostly of items that a dealer supervisor would expect to get....cologne, two ties, and a shirt. There was also the obligatory ABBA DVD that somebody always gets for me. My ex-boss asked me what I wanted, and I said a stereo so I just might get that.

Oink Oink

Just finished Christmas dinner at my uncle's....ROAST PIG! Damn that thing was huge. My cousin and I picked it up from Richmond. It cost $140! We could barely finish half of it, because my uncle and aunt made so much food other than the pig. So bloody full now.

Then a bunch of us (10) got together and played Cranium, which was a pretty fun game. We were divided into "Boys vs. Girls" and of course the men won.

Well, time to relax before I have to go back to work at 8pm....on Christmas Day too. Oh well, at least it's extra pay for working on a holiday. Wonder what it will be like to work with what's her name. It'll be interesting if I manage to get the floor manager position....I'll be her boss....

Chance of a Lifetime

An interesting development has occurred at work. There was a posting for a position as a Relief Floor Manager, which basically means you are in charge of the running of the casino. Above that is the Shift Manager. I was not going to apply this time around, because last time I did, I was told that I did not have enough "continuous gaming experience", since I had quit for so many years and only recently came back to the casino industry.

However, somebody from Head Office REQUESTED that I apply, which I found strange. Perhaps he sees something in me. If I somehow manage to secure this position it will mean a lot of responsibilities, and perhaps a lot of "enemies", considering I'd only been back to the casino industry for 6 months. Granted, I have a total of nine years casino experience, but that has been divided into stints of 5.5 years, 3 years and .5 years. But who knows, maybe I'll become the boss soon! I'll probably have to go through an interview process, but we'll see.

In the meantime, I hope everybody has a Merry Christmas!

So Be It

I have vented, and nothing more will be said about the matter below. I have better things to lose sleep over.

BITCH

The quest for Anna has ended. She's turned out to be one heck of a bitch. There I said it. It's mean, but it's true. If you happen to find this blog, Anna, well you are a bitch. And if anybody who knows Anna reads this blog, you can tell her that too. I know she's saying bad things about me so she'll get a taste of her own medicine. I'm usually very easygoing and can take a lot of jokes, but don't ever say things behind my back. So be it.

And for those who are wondering, no I won't say anything more about the matter. I'm going to enjoy my two days off and get ready for a nice Christmas dinner at my uncle's on Christmas Eve. Tomorrow I'll have lunch with Lily and dinner with Mickey. Somewhere in between I have to take that bloody Field Test to see if there is anything wrong with my eyes.

I'd like to say a special hello to my buddy in Oregon, the great johnnymc. It's been too long, we must keep in touch more often! I wonder where White Pants is after all these years.

Merry Christmas to all (except the Bitch)....hey, I'm actually feeling better now.

Christmas Party Pics

The pictures from the casino party are at the link below. That picture of me is yukky, did I look that bad? I guess so.

CHRISTMAS PARTY PICS

Commencement of Hangover

The party's over. The music sucked but I made $100 in the hold'em tournament so who cares. They played NOTHING from the 70's and one or two songs from the 80's. I didn't even hear a lot of the recent stuff, it was more house and rave music, which I knew nothing about.

My head hurts like crazy from consumption of alcohol, so now it is time for sleep so I can recover. Luckily I have a late 10:15pm shift so it won't be so bad.

OK here's a picture of what somebody can look like when they're drunk.

Commencement of Intoxication

Can't stay up too late, I have a 12:15pm start on Sunday, which I requested so I can go to the Christmas Party. I can't wait. Time to party, time to dance, time to make a fool of myself again....but mainly it's time to have fun. BARTENDER!

Commencement

Commencement of shopping began at 12 noon Friday.
Completion of shopping occurred at 11:59pm Friday.
Now commencing a break before commencing wrapping of presents.

Short and Sweet

Has anybody watched the video for "Call on Me" by Eric Prydz?

Christmas Mayhem

I was going to go shopping today on my day off but ended up staying home most of the day.....and without my computer too. I lent my notebook out to Michael because his was broken and he needed to take care of all his financial wheelings and dealings. I did go out briefly but came home in time to watch The Apprentice. It was pretty uneventful, as I pretty much knew who would win early on in the show. And when it was live, everybody voted for Kelly. Damn I would have chosen the Vegas condo, maybe if the Donald reads this blog....I'm available.

I've pretty much planned my Christmas shopping. My plan each year is to decide what to get for whoever I'm getting present for, then spend a day (or two max) running around frantically. This way I only experience the mayhem for one day. At least this year I'm starting "early". I've been known to start my Christmas shopping on December 24 about an hour before the shops close.

Only three more days until the Christmas party for work. Time to get drunk and dance the night away. Ben (and Tiff too), I hear there will be a hold'em tournament so if you can somehow get a fake ID, come to the Aqua Lounge Sunday night after 9pm.

Random Rumblings

1.75 hours of overtime last night (well now this morning), but why not if you get time and a half? I have the same start tomorrow (well tonight now) at 8:15pm so who knows.

Everybody at work got their Christmas present from the company. It's a nice leather carry-on bag. It actually doesn't look bad. In February we'll get our profit sharing, should be a couple hundred bucks for me. Cool.

Well, it looks like the NHL season is pretty much over, what a shame. At least they keep showing classic hockey games on TV.

And now I lay me down to sleep....

Something to Pass the Time

take a pencil and a piece of
paper...answer these questions

1. Think of a person who is important
to you
(not a family member)

2. Which is your favorite color out of red, black,
blue, and green, yellow?

3. Your first initial?

4. Your month of birth?

5. Which color do you like more, black or white?

6. Name of a person of the same gender as
yours.

7. Your favorite number?

8. Do you like California or Florida more?

9. Do you like the lake or the ocean more?

10. Write down a wish. (A realistic one).


WHEN YOU'RE DONE, SCROLL DOWN
(DON'T CHEAT)








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THE ANSWERS

1. You are completely in love with this
person.

2. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - You are conservative and aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid
back.
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses
and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow- you are a very happy person and give
good advice to those who are down.

3. If your initial is:
A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in
your life.
L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum
and
your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z You like to help others and your future love
life looks very good.

4. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and
you will discover that you fall in love with
someone
totally unexpected.
April-June: You will have a strong love
relationship
that will not last long but the memories will last
forever.
July-Sep: You will have a great year and will
experience a major life changing experience for
the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great, but
eventually you will find your soul mate.

5. If you chose...
Black: Your life will take on a different
direction, it
will seem hard at the time but will be the best
thing
for you, and you will be
glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who
completely confides in you and would do
anything
for you,
but you may not realize it.

6. This person is your best friend.

7. This is how many close friends you have in
your lifetime.

8. If you chose:
California: You like adventure.
Florida: You are a laid back person.

9. If you chose:
Lake: You are loyal to your friends and to your
love. And you are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please
people.

10. This wish will come true only if you RE-
POST THIS BULLETIN in one hour, and it will
come true before your next birthday!

The Phantom Returns

December 22 is the premier of a movie I've been waiting a LONG time to see....Phantom of the Opera. I saw the musical twice and it was awesome. It is one of the most beautiful stories ever....and a pretty good book too for those who prefer to read.

Meanwhile, I guess the Chess Christmas Party thing is on Sunday so maybe I'll go for the food.

Apprentice Review II

If Jennifer beats Kelly then this show is the biggest joke of all time.

Sing Me a Lullaby

I hate it when I can't go to sleep. Might as well stick a pointless entry into my blog.

Work Blues

My days off changed for this week from Thursday-Friday to Wednesday-Thursday, so... I have two days off! As usual, the first day off is spent doing absolutely nothing. I've slept for most of the day but now I'm up. Perhaps I'll do some shopping since December 25 is rapidly approaching. I usually like to plan all my shopping beforehand so it doesn't take me too long to buy all the necessary presents. I just hate all the lineups and pushy people.

The casino Christmas party is on December 19 (Sunday), and I requested the night off so I could attend.... and possibly make a complete fool of myself again. But why not, it's a great time to unwind. No more topless pictures I hope.

O.T.

I switched shifts so I could start early at 7:45pm (instead of 10:15pm) so I could go home at 3:45am...or so I thought. It was SOOOO busy at work that probably half the dealers and supervisors had to work overtime. I didn't get off work until 5:15am. Oh well, can't complain, overtime means time and a half, extra tips, and hence more money. And now for some reason I'm wide awake even at 6 in the morning.

Well, I'll have to try to sleep anyways, so good night.

Time For Work Again

So much for two days off, they went by way too quickly.

What did I do today? Not much. I had lunch with Lily and then at about 4pm we went shopping at Oakridge. It was too early for me to start my Christmas shopping, so I just hung around with her. The one thing with Lily and me is that we can just hang out like friends, making crude jokes at each other (she's unbelievably good at that too). She's a really good friend to have and I'm really glad I met her.

I did a silly thing; I came home at 7 and took a nap. Now I'm wide awake. Guess I'll be up for a while watching TV and surfing randomly on the Web.

Apprentice Review

B.S. Two sluts can walk around selling candy bars for $5 but the girl who took a chance got accused as a stripper. Well, it didn't help her name was Ivana. But at least I got to see a bit of her ass before she left.

Well it's two smart guys against two bimbos, wonder who the Donald will go with. Then again, he's married a few sluts himself.

Who Needs Sleep?

Eek, I get home in the morning (Wednesday) at around 8:30am, hoping for a decent sleep. I knew at some point a new fridge would be delivered since the old one broke. But I was told it would come around 3:30pm, which was OK...

At 10am I was woken up by the casino, asking if I could go to Richmond for a 12pm shift. The floor manager was not aware that I had just finished an 11pm-7am shift in Coquitlam the night before. Due to health regulations (or whatever it's called), I cannot work unless 8 hours have elapsed between shifts, so I couldn't.

Then at 11am a friend of mine asked me out for lunch (no not Lily). And at 11:30am my Mom called to make plans for lunch on Thursday. Finally at 3pm the fridge arrives. And at 5pm I started my shift at work. Was I grumpy? What do you think?

But it's over now and I have my days off. I have lunch with family tomorrow and then a trip to the eye specialist to see if there is anything wrong with my eye. I certainly hope not, I'm actually a bit scared. Well, we'll see.

Time for Bed at 9 in the Morning

It's 8:45am, I just got home from work. I'm going to bed. Just a note to say hi to everyone. I have another shift at 5pm, this is bordering on crazy. Good night everyone.

Just Another Day

Just sitting at home watching The Amazing Race (early version on Channel 134) before my trek to Coquitlam for my 11pm shift. Before that I watched Rebel Billionaire, nothing too exciting.

Looks like it's a cold one outside, something tells me we're going to see a lot of snow this year.

And now, back to the show.

LATE UPDATE: It's over! Ken Jennings has lost!

Boring Work

Lots of 10:15pm-6:15am shifts on the present 2-week schedule. I'm actually getting used to them, but the problem is that most of the time I'm stuck in the roulette pit, watching the same games (while other supervisors usually get to watch a variety of games during the night). Unfortunately not enough supervisors know roulette like I do.

Tuesday I have an 11pm-7am shift...IN COQUITLAM! I haven't been back there in a while. The tips are the best there so I can't complain.

I won't see Jolene until Saturday night, but I can't wait.

"Lord Vader"..."Yes Master"..."Rise!"

Went to see The Incredibles with Albert, but the highlight was watching the trailer for Star Wars Episode III. May 19, 2005 I know where I'll be. I can't wait.

Oh yeah, The Incredibles. It was actually a pretty neat movie/cartoon, much better than I had expected. I recognized a few of the voices but it wasn't like they had a lot of really popular actors and actresses (Samuel L. Jackson was my favorite).

I've Had Better Days

This is a pretty miserable day so far, especially because things are up in the air. When I went for my eye exam last week, I did a bunch of other tests. Evidently the "field test" was not very good and I'm being referred to an eye specialist. Of course this does not necessarily mean something bad, but then again it does not necessarily mean nothing is wrong. The dreaded word glaucoma came into the conversation, and I can only hope that's not the case. But if it is the case, I hope at least something can be done. I hope all this is a case of paranoia on my part...I guess we'll see once I see the eye specialist.

Meanwhile, I guess I should wish any Americans reading this ultra-boring blog a Happy Thanksgiving.

Time for R & R

At last I have two days off to relax in the comfort of my home. I doubt I'll be doing much although I think it's time I do some spring cleaning. My place is such a mess. There's also this table that's been in my balcony for three years that I haven't gotten around to getting rid of (mainly because I don't know how I'd throw it away). I wonder if I can some how fit it into storage downstairs.

Anyways, I'm beat. Hope everybody is well.

If Life is a Bowl of Cherries then Why am I in the Pits?

Lately my life seems to be in a rut. Sure, I'm happy I'm back at work at the casino, catching up on old times with friends and meeting new people. But every day it seems to be the same old thing...sleep, eat, work (in different orders). I need a holiday and so far have requested some time off in July for the 2005 Canadian Open. I'd also like to go to Vegas some time in the spring just to see the greatest place in the world. Soon Ben and I will take the poker world by storm I hope.

As for chess, I doubt I'll be playing much in the coming months, perhaps not until the Canadian Open itself. There's just no time and energy to devote a whole weekend.

Must Be PMS

What an ugly night to return to after two wonderful days off. The floor manager was in an amazingly grumpy mood and it definitely showed. She was pretty much yelling at everybody and blaming others for certain mistakes when it was she herself who made them (I won't go into detail here). As supervisors, we are told never to rebuke dealers on the table, but to take them aside or speak to them on their breaks. The same should apply when a manager must say something to a supervisor. However, Ms. Floor Manager was pretty much insulting us within hearing range of dealers and supervisors (and players) and it definitely does not look good.

But after work five of us (supervisors) had a wonderful breakfast at Denny's venting our frustrations out, it was awesome. I still feel shitty about the whole night but at least I got a lot of things off my chest. Now I can hopefully get a decent "day's" sleep before getting back to the grind at 8:30pm.

You're Fired....and You're Fired Too

Wow, a double firing on The Apprentice last night! Well, both Wes and Maria were arguing for the whole show so it's not too surprising they both got the axe. What happens, is there like one less episode of the show now?

My eyes aren't as swollen from the contacts now but I went to the eye doctor who said I could perhaps stick to glasses for the weekend just to rest the eyes. We'll see how I look tomorrow when I get some sleep.

On another note, I had to write a report on an incident that happened at the casino on November 15. I won't get into detail here (as you will all be incredibly bored and confused) but suffice to say a customer complained about one of the dealers and frankly I have to side with the customer on this one. However, I may have made a few incorrect judgement calls myself. Hopefully I won't get into too much shit over it.

Back to your regularly scheduled programming....

Money Money Money

I'm watching the early version of The Apprentice as we speak. Looks like something to do with Levi's. Hmm, is it me or is Ivana kind of hot this week?

My right eye has been quite swollen from my failed attempts to put the contact lens in. Everybody at work last night thought that I either had no sleep or was in a fight. I probably won't wear them on my days off.

Mei wanted to play bingo tonight but I wasn't in the mood. I'm just going to relax a bit and probably grab some dinner later. Tiff, where are you?

The New Look

I'm wearing contact lenses now! What started as a long overdue trip to the eye doctor for an exam became a new experience for me. I am still planning to get new eyeglasses in the New Year (when my extended medical coverage kicks in) but the eye doc and I discussed contact lenses so I thought what the heck.

So far I'm not used to sticking things into my eye and then taking them out. It took me almost 30 minutes to put them on the first time, but the cute little receptionist said that's an average time. I guess we'll see what happens now; I have a three month's supply of them so if I decide not to continue with them, that's OK. But I must admit they're cool. I don't feel them at all.

On a different note, I just finished watching the second episode of Rebel Billionaire. WOW! What a show, it's my new favorite (even ahead of The Apprentice). Now I'm watching The Amazing Race before I get ready for work.

Work Sucks (again)

It was another tough night at work; without getting into detail suffice to say that it's tough to be a supervisor. Sometimes you tell someone to do something again and again, and yet he or she does not do it. It gets so frustrating sometimes.

Meanwhile, Jolene starts her two-week holiday. I left my phone number (and email address) with her and asked her to call me for dinner. Let's see if she calls me. In the meantime there's still Anna at work....

Welcome back, Tiff, nice to talk to you finally after all this time. Now MSN won't be as boring.

7:15am, perhaps I should commence sleep.

The Search is Over?

Could it be another passing phase, or could it be I've POSSIBLY found the woman of my dreams? And after all this time, can it be that it's not Anna after all?

Jolene is in many ways the opposite of Anna. I'm not saying she's a dumb blonde but I sense that Anna is more intelligent while Jolene is more beautiful. Anna is short, Jolene is tall. Anna is introverted, Jolene is extroverted. And yet I'm attracted to both.

Tonight, I was flirting a bit with Jolene (Anna left just as I started work) and surprisingly Jolene was flirting back. That of course doesn't mean much except that she at least doesn't find me impulsive. I was fortunate enough to spend every break with her.

The bad thing (or can it be good?) is that she's on holiday for two weeks starting Tuesday. She's not planning to go anywhere so it looks like she has a lot of free time to...say....go out with me. It's time to plan something like a movie on Friday. What's good in the theater these days?

Raise

After taking my best friend Michael and his wife Vandy out for dinner, Michael and I decided to try out luck on the poker tables, since we hadn't gone for such a long time (almost a year?). We played for about three hours, and made about $100 between the two of us (Michael about $65 and me about $35). Good enough. I didn't get a lot of good hands but whenever I did get one, I got paid for it.

When are you going to be old enough to play, Ben? The tables await you.

Days Off Finally

Wow, what a way to end my week. I started at 7:45pm and didn't sign out until 5am. Quick kids, how many hours did Mr. Feng work? It was really busy at work and as if by fate, I did not spend ONE shift in roulette (I usually spend 80% of my time there) where the ever lovely Anna was working. I've asked a few people and again, as if by fate, EVERY ONE of them thought that Jolene was more my type than Anna. Well I guess I have two days to contemplate and decide on a plan of action.

These two days off are most welcome after a long week. Perhaps I'll stay in bed for 48 hours.

Anna Who?

Can it be, has somebody come into my life that makes me forget about Anna?

There are two new roulette dealers, one was Jelena, who was part of that little incident I wrote about yesterday. The other is a ravishing girl named Jolene. I had seen her a few months ago when I had a day shift, as she used to work days until she took the roulette course, and now must return back to night shift.

Anyways, suffice to say there was something about her, something enticing. As if by fate, her very first shift on roulette was with me supervising, and even though she was nervous, she managed to get through it. Evidently she was telling everybody in the breakroom what a nice supervisor I was, helping her through her first hour. My best friend at the casino, Michael, was even asking me what the hell was going on between me and Jolene, because he noticed we were standing very close to each other. Hmmm....

And now, a decision to make...there is the quiet, gentle Anna, and from what I gather, the more outgoing Jolene. Hopefully I'll end up with one of them at least.

On another note, I saw the premiere episode of Rebel Billionaire, the reality show with Richard Branson. This is a cool show if you haven't watched it yet.

OK good night. Lily wants to have lunch on Wednesday instead of Thursday this week, and since it's about 7am now I better get some rest.

You Talkin' To Me?

It was bound to happen sooner or later, I almost went at it with a player tonight. He was picking on one of the roulette dealers, who was dealing for the first time. She was nervous but that's part of the process. I was very annoyed that somebody would have nothing better to do than try to make it worse for the dealer. I told the player to relax and then he just started swearing and pretty much threatening me. So I called the manager and then the guy left. Nothing much became of that, but I really felt bad for the dealer. Why are people such assholes sometimes?

Paging Dr. Feng

Now I know how a doctor feels being on call every day.

After work last night (10:15pm-6:15am) a couple of us coworkers decided to go for breakfast at Denny's, and I didn't get home until around 8. No worries, I wasn't supposed to work until 10:15pm tonight as well.

That was until I got a "wakeup call" at 12:45pm asking if I can come in to work at 2:15pm. Ugh. Well, I guess at least I can sleep early TONIGHT. So I only have time to say hi before getting ready for work....8 hours after I came home from work.

Back on Blogger

Sorry everyone, I couldn't get into Blogger the last couple of days...but here I am. Nothing much has happened in the last few days, other than the fact that Tiff seems to be doing well in Greece. I was supposed to have to days off on Thursday and Friday, but yesterday they called me in for a 4pm shift. Oh well, money's money.

Looks like my favorite contestant Raj is gone from The Apprentice. Too bad the receptionist wouldn't go out with him...smooth guy to the end. Who's going to win now? I don't know and don't really care that much now. The show hasn't been as interesting as last year, I don't really see ANYBODY who's really capable of becoming The Apprentice.

OK, to finish off, a little quote I got off of a friend's page....cheers...

"Friends are like television. Some are like PBS and always asking for money. Others are like the news, with sad tales to tell everyday, some are like that one station with the foreign language; you don't understand a word of it but you listen and watch anyway. And then there are the ones like the commercials, always changes, ever-so-annoying and only seem to be there when you are bored. But every once in a while you meet someone who's like a really good movie of the week or that one tv show you hardly ever get to see anymore because you're so busy. My point is hold on to the friends that deserve ur love and the ones u care about. Since we don't have a remote control to mute someone or just change the channel, pick your friends CAREFULLY."

48 Hours of Freedom

At last, two days off Thursday and Friday. It's been an interesting week to say the least. I've "heard" that I won the Hallowe'en costume contest at work, but nobody seems to know what the prize (if any?) is. I heard that the prize is coming from Head Office...what does that mean? Somebody said it's $100. Last time I got a prize from the casino it was a T-shirt. So we'll see.

I'll be pretty busy on my days off, lunch with my usual Thursday lunch date, and then I have to finish 6 evaluations for dealers. I actually had 5 but one of the supervisors was too busy and asked me to do one....guess who the evaluation is for? Hint: look at the subtitle of my blog. Well, nevertheless, I have to be fair, and there is a lot that she can work on to become a good roulette dealer.

Wonder how Tiff is doing, it's weird not reading an update on her blog after so many days! EMAIL ME!

Damn Blisters

Looks like the silly Americans are going to vote the silly president back into office for four years. Well, if anything, the alternative wasn't exactly any better.

Just went to a dinner for one of the managers at the casino that is transferring to Coquitlam. I guess I'm still a little buzzed...and I have to go to work tomorrow at 5pm.

In other silly news, I'd bought a new pair of shoes a few days ago, and I guess they're a bit too tight because I developed two ugly blisters on the heel. What sucks is they can't heal well because I have to wear the shoes to work, and I end up tearing the skin again (ewwww). Aren't you glad I told you all about this?

Trick or Treat

Did everybody have a nice Hallowe'en? With little time to decide yesterday when I went shopping for a costume, it was down to Elvis, Marilyn Monroe, and either Austin Powers or Dr. Evil. In the end I decided on Austin Powers. Damn I looked good.

In other news, I am tied for first again in the football pool, and can win another $555 this week if things go well. Ideally, the New York Jets will beat the Miami Dolphins by more than 6 points AND the total points scored by both teams are less than 42.

Where are you Tiff? Having fun over there yet?

Dressing Up

Evidently we are allowed to dress up on Hallowe'en night so I have about 15 hours to decide what I should wear. I've been "hinting" that I need some high heels, hmmm. I remember once I dressed in drag and it was difficult trying to find size 10 high heels. Any ideas? Maybe I'll just go with the standard Elvis outfit.

Meanwhile, I had 45 minutes OT tonight, no big deal. It's extra money any way you look at it. Time to do a bit of surfing before bed.

Did we all set our clocks back?

Yawn

So much for my two days off, time sure flies when you're doing nothing. I did get to run a few errands today, coffee with Sam, buying a new pair of shoes, picking up the Armani ties I bought on eBay, and having dinner at Osaka Teppanyaki Restaurant with Henry Chiu (some of you may know him). Came home to watch The Apprentice (missed it last night) and now just being a couch potato.

Anyways, in case I don't talk to you Tiff, have a great time you know where! Maybe you'll meet a cute little boy over there or something. Hee hee.

I'm So "Ronery"

I went to see Team America: World Police with Albert tonight, the movie was hilarious! Sure it was sexist and racist, but who cares. My two favorite scenes was when the Korean dictator sang his "I'm So Lonely" song and the speech at the end was hilarious (the one with the Dicks, P*ssies and *ssholes).

But since there are children reading this blog, be warned there is nudity and sexual situations (even if they are between two puppets).

I Won Again!

Before my shift in Coquitlam last night at 11pm, Mei called me up to play bingo in Surrey from 6:30pm to about 10pm. I wasn't too excited to go considering I find bingo incredibly boring. But based on my winning streak I thought I'd give it a shot.
Well I managed to get TWO bingos! As it was, I spent about $49 but got back $161, not bad. I wonder what I should gamble on tonight to continue the streak.

I Won!

Strange that I'm mixing incredible luck with incredible frustration (at work). Today, I just won $550 in the football pool at work! There is one more game tomorrow but I am in first place by 2 so I can't be caught!

But unfortunately there is work itself, and after last night's problems I don't really want to go to work tonight. But of course, what choice do I have?

Hope you guys had fun in the Pairs tournament, but I was just to tired to go.

Work Sucks

I had a miserable day at work. It must be bad when I don't even notice Anna. I won't bore everyone with the details but suffice to say people (both players and staff) put me into a really shitty mood. Mistakes were made and certain staff (rather than accept responsbility) decided to blame me. But I wouldn't have any of that. In the end, I practically took matters into my own hands and pretty much managed the running of the casino on my own. It was almost as if management had an inkling was testing me since they knew I would apply for the relief floor manager position.

Nevertheless, it was a day I would rather forget.
On another note, I won $10 on Lotto 6/49 on Saturday to continue my lottery streak.

Better Than Nothing

I got five numbers out of seven in the Super 7 yesterday! In total, I managed to win $168.50 for an $8 investment, not bad! I can't believe I only won $168 though, I mean the odds of getting 5 numbers out of 7 (47 numbers to choose) isn't exactly easy. Oh well, better than nothing.

Today I took my cousin to Aberdeen Mall and went to that Daiso place, the huge store where everything is $2. Tiff, I think you'd be in heaven there. I bought a couple of pens and miscellaneous stuff for....$2 each. Some things there are not worth $2, while some things are incredible deals at $2.

Anyways, now we're going to Shabusen for dinner with his friend and wife, then I have my wonderful midnight shift. Toodle loo.

Work Work Work

Strangely, a number of my fellow supervisors asked me if I was applying for the Relief Floor Manager position, almost as if they thought I should get it or something. Or perhaps they are just nosy. Anyhow, I have three days to put my application together, so we'll see what happens.

Meanwhile I'm so tired from my graveyard shift yesterday; luckily I had today off but I spent most of it with my cousin visiting from Toronto. Tomorrow I'll be out probably the whole day with him and my Grandma, before a dreaded 12am shift. Yuk.

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Against All Odds

There is a position available at the casino for a relief floor manager. The floor manager/relief floor manager is in charge of the running of the casino games (whereas the shift manager is more in charge of the technical aspects, and is the "boss" of the floor manager). Anyways, I've decided to apply, even though I am facing fairly impossible odds (slim and none, etc.). However, who would have thought that the Boston Red Sox would beat the New York Yankees after being down 3-0?

Realistically I don't have much of a chance, but if anything, my application is part of a plan; this way Head Office at least knows I am interested, and in the future I may have a better chance. And of course, if the planets are aligned correctly, perhaps a miracle can happen. Who knows.

Time to touch up my resume and write one hell of a cover letter. "Yo yo, gimme the job, yo"...OK maybe not.

I'm Hungry

Went to the television preview thing with Glenn. There were about 100 other people there, much more than I had expected. We got to preview two shows.

The first was called Soulmates. The premise was a woman who runs into a guy that she evidently had a past with in a past life (if you believe in that stuff). The guy has a lot of secrets that he keeps from the woman and in the end, he leaves her but leaves a note which says he loves her but she shouldn't look for him. Anyways, it was a great idea but I don't know if it can become a series. Nevertheless I gave it a thumbs up.

The second was called City, a sitcom starring Valerie Harper, who plays a city manager. It had some funny spots but basically it was just another sitcom, nothing special, so I gave it a thumbs down.

There were door prizes (6 in all) and Glenn managed to win one of them. Lucky SOB.

Anyways, I also want to add that tonight, I had dinner at 6pm with Glenn. Then when the preview was over Glenn drove me home at around 10....and I was bored so I went to a restaurant near my place and ate a chicken steak. I came home and was MSN'ing with Tiff and my friend Sam when Albert calls me and says he's outside and wants to go grab a bite. Hmm, so we went to Knight & Day and I found out that Tuesdays is All You Can Eat Ribs....so I ate like three plates of ribs. Three meals in 7 hours, I rule.

Work in the Boonies

As it turned out I did drive to Coquitlam, as I took too long to get ready. I only managed to get to work about 10 minutes before my shift so I was cutting it close. The graveyard shift came and went without any major problems, and the drive home at 5:30 in the morning was quite peaceful.

Today is a day off but I'm going to that television preview thing with Glenn. I wonder what two (new) shows we'll be previewing. All they've said is that there will be two 30-minute clips.

Hmm, looks like Belle and Philip are going to do the nasty soon on Days of Our Lives.....

Oops

Tonight is my last night in Coquitlam (three total) and last night wasn't exactly the best. I forgot to lock one of the tables and almost got into major shit. In fact, I'm sure there's a note of it somewhere.

This long trek to Coquitlam has also been tiring me out. Strangely I'll probably take the Skytrain to work tonight. I never like long drives, especially by myself. I could use my day off tomorrow, which I requested as I'm going to a preview thing with one of my friends. It's at www.televisionpreview.com and I'm not sure what to expect.

Anyways, I guess I'm just having not the best of weeks so far, hopefully it gets better.

Weekend Blues

It was a pretty busy night in Coquitlam, but that's the way I like it; better than standing around doing nothing (as I often do at the Holiday Inn in Vancouver). I have two more graveyard shifts there, and then it's back to boring Holiday Inn. I'll probably make about $225 in tips for the three nights....YES!

I guess I should probably get some sleep since I have to play in the dreaded Grand Prix tomorrow. CHESS SUCKS. But I'm starving so I'll probably go grab something beforehand.

Just For You Tiff

Oh, girl I've known you very well
I've seen you growing everyday
I never really looked before
but now you take my breath away.

Suddenly you're in my life
part of everything I do
you got me working day and night
just trying to keep a hold on you.

Here in your arms I found my paradise
my only chance for happiness
and if I lose you now I think I would die.

Oh say you'll always be my baby
we can make it shine, we can take forever
just a minute at a time.

More than a woman, more than a woman to me
more than a woman, more than a woman to me
more than a woman, oh, oh, oh.

There are stories old and true
of people so in love like you and me
and I can see myself
let history repeat itself.

Reflecting how I feel for you
thinking about those people then
I know that in a thousand years
I'd fall in love with you again.

This is the only way that we should fly
this is the only way to go
and if I lose you I know I would die.

Oh say you'll always be my baby
we can make it shine, we can take forever
just a minute at a time.

More than a woman, more than a woman to me
more than a woman, more than a woman to me
more than a woman, oh, oh, oh.

More Than a Woman -- Bee Gees

Ho Hum La Dee Dah

Had my flu shot tonight during the family dinner....I guess it's OK when your uncle is a doctor. Everybody had their chance getting their left arm jabbed by a needle. It's not that I hate needles (after all, I DO have a a tattoo) but it's that afterwards for a few hours my arm feels sore and I find it somewhat difficult to lift things. Evidently it's an aftereffect for some people.

Anyways, the next THREE days I'll be in faraway Coquitlam, with shifts of 3pm-11pm (OK), 11pm-7am (yuk) and 9pm-5am (yuk). I guess if I'm lucky a beautiful girl will also be there too, but I won't hold my breath. Good night to all....

That's What Friends Are For

Had dinner with Albert and discussed his impending separation. It's sad but to be honest, I don't think he and Mei were meant to be, and I don't believe they can compromise. Oh well, if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. The best I can do is to be a friend when he or Mei needs one. It's tough because they are both my best friends and I don't want to see them this way, but to repeat the same phrase in the same paragraph for the fourth time....perhaps it's not meant to be.

After dinner at TGI Friday's at Metrotown we went to Silver City to see what movies were about to start at 10:10pm. Our only choice was Shaun of the Dead....actually it was a silly enough movie that I could say it was pretty good.

Then we went for a long drive, first from Metrotown to Stanley Park....and then all the way to Coquitlam! I wanted to time the trip from near my house just so I know how much time I needed to get to work there on Saturday. The trip (from about 1am near my place) took only 20 minutes, but for a 3pm shift on Saturday I should probably give myself a little over an hour in case there is traffic.

OK Tiff (or whoever reads this who is going to THE STREET with her), perhaps I'll see you downtown. Look for me at Chapters around 2pm or so, or call me. Tiff has my number (and if she doesn't I just emailed it to her).

Rats

So I go on my break at 12:45am, knowing that my last hour would be spent on roulette, supervising the most beautiful roulette dealer I know, the one who spins the ball exactly like I do, the one I might actually be falling in love with.....

...and then at 12:47am the manager says I can go home, because the casino is pretty dead and they don't need me. Well, I get to go home early, but then I miss seeing her. And now I have two days off followed by a shift in Coquitlam. Ah the cruelty of it all.

Nevertheless it's nice to go home early, especially on my "Friday". Hopefully I'll get a good night's sleep, and then I can have lunch with Lily.

Should I or Shouldn't I?

Should I feel guilty? A friend of mine is in Europe for a 2-week holiday and left me her car for safekeeping. Does safekeeping mean I'm allowed to take it for a drive now and then? I hope so. This will definitely make my shift in Coquitlam a lot easier to get to.

Anybody wanna go for ice cream on Thursday or Friday? Mondo Gelato downtown, my treat.

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And it's me you need to show

CHORUS:
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
'cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me


I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And it's me you need to show

CHORUS
repeat and fade


How Deep is Your Love -- Bee Gees

Random Thoughts

Did everybody have a good Thanksgiving? I was at work but I had a good time. The music was set to a retro station so all night I was listening to mostly disco and 80's songs. I'm back to work tonight once more as a dealer; back to supervising tomorrow.

It is possible that starting next year I will be teaching the roulette course to dealers who are learning the game. This will mean I will be working both as a teacher AND a supervisor, lots of work (and not much sleep) but the money should be excellent.

Tomorrow is SUPPOSED to be the start of the NHL season. This sucks bigger than anything in the world. Hockey is my life and to go possibly a year (or MORE???) with no hockey is sickening. I hope these money-grabbing idiots get their act together. And by the way, I hate the owners and I hate the players too. They obviously don't care about the fans.

Happy Thanksgiving!

I have to work, but hope everybody enjoys their turkey!

Show Me Da Money (I Hope)

Work was OK, I wasn't as tired as I thought I'd be. In fact it was a pretty good day workwise.

Onto more important things, I'm tied for first in the NFL Pool we have at work! Without getting into detail, if the total points scored tomorrow between Green Bay and Tennessee is 43, I win $500! Wish me luck! I'll buy you all ice cream!

By the way, Tiff and Ben, gambling is evil so don't do it....unless you win....

And Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep

It is now just about 5am (got off work at 4:15am). My next shift is in 7 hours at noon (yuk) so I'm not going to write much here. I can say that I had an OK night at work, even though Anna was there. Some nights you're just not into it and tonight was one of them. Perhaps the thought of having a day shift the next day had something to do with it. Oh well, I will try to update when I get home around 8pm.

Hey Ben, isn't it about time you updated your blog?

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

She Will Be Loved -- Maroon 5

Three Girls but No Anna

It all started at about 11 when one of my female friends called me for lunch, and also to tell me that she was going on a trip to Germany and Austria the next day and to ask if I wouldn't mind watching her cats for two weeks. No problem I guess, especially since she treated me for lunch at Earl's. Mmmmm. Then at about 1pm Lily called me to see if I wanted to go for lunch....hmmm....pass up a lunch date with Lily? Did you think I could Tiff? So I went to lunch with Lily and we talked until around 2:30pm. Then I decided to go downtown and called one of my best friends Sam for coffee. No Tiff, not YOUR Sam, my friend is actually named Sam. Afterwards I was going to hang out at Chapter's for a while but then ANOTHER female friend of mine, Mei, wanted to go play bingo in Surrey (????) and needed company. Bingo, the most boring game in the universe but I had nothing else to do anyways so off I went.

As it turned out, I lost $30 while she got TWO bingos and won about $120. I got another free meal out of it. Yes, good old Jason getting free food from pretty girls.

No plans on Friday, my second day off. Maybe just chill and catch The Apprentice, since I missed it tonight.

I Love to Work!

I had a great night at work, even though it was in the boonies known as Coquitlam. It was pretty busy and as a result, there were times when the stress level was fairly high. However, I work much better in times of stress. There's all this money being passed around, and as a supervisor I have to make sure everything is paid (and taken away) correctly. I must admit that I ALMOST made a $500 mistake when a dealer miscounted the chips she was supposed to give out. But I caught it.

I'm beginning to like my job more and more now. Perhaps it's because I set that five-year goal of becoming the floor manager. Nevertheless, I love going to work (and no, it's not just because of that beautiful girl).

Tiff, I hope you feel better, as your last post was a bit sad. But I admit sometimes I like to just stare at the wall myself, and at times I almost want to cry. Keep your chin up.

Working 9 to 5

Tonight I have the ultra-ugly 9pm-5am shift in Coquitlam. Tips are the best there but the ugly part is getting there. Well in this case the ugly part is getting back at 5 in the morning.

Damn I need a car. It's one of my priorities in the next few months, in addition to getting new glasses. I haven't decided what car to get yet.... nothing fancy but nothing absolutely ugly neither.

OK back to watching poker on TV now.

The Human Calculator

I got to deal for a second night and I must say it was great. The key to dealing a good roulette game is to be able to calculate the payouts that a player has won, and to do it quickly. Last night my brain must have been working overtime because I was coming up with calculations faster than usual. The players were often shocked and even the supervisors were impressed. I guess I have to thank my Grandma years ago, who instilled the times table into my head when I was about 8 years old.

If anything, it's all a matter of applying the appropriate shortcuts and just being able to calculate in your head. For example, to multiply 73 x 32, you can go (73 x 30) + (73 x 2), or just calculate in your head. I wonder how wonder brain Ben does it.

Tonight I'm back to supervising, but it was a nice change the last two nights.
And I saw "The Wedding Singer" this afternoon which has put me into a good mood because I love the movie.

Sorry But I'm Taken

Interesting night at work. I got to deal (as opposed to supervising), which is a welcome change. Even though I was still under the weather (with the occasional runny nose) I had an awesome night on roulette. It was as if I hadn't left for five years. On a strange note, I was propositioned by one of the players, which would normally be flattering but in the case the player was a guy.....EWWWWWW. Not that there's anything wrong with that but.....EWWWWW.

My new medicine of the week is Dimetapp, let's see if my nose is still a waterfall tomorrow. Good night to all.

At Last

Well tonight I finally had "the talk" with management regarding my probation at work, and I basically passed with flying colors. All that remains is to complete about a week's more worth of work to complete the "hours" requirement.

My evaluation was very good, better than I'd expected it to be, but there are things that I can still work on. Two major things are confidence and I guess respect. The confidence is obvious, as I have been quite hesitant at times because I was unsure of certain procedures. The respect is more being able to critique other people, even if they are good friends that I have known for a while. And yes, that includes Anna.

So now I'm "in", now I can set other goals (new car, new glasses, perhaps some new threads?).

Countdown

7:45pm, waiting for a dreadful 10:15pm-6:15am shift at work. I missed The Apprentice yesterday because I forgot it was on Wednesday, but it's on at 8pm so cool.

Considering I was sick, I managed to get a lot done today. I had lunch with Sam (there, you're mentioned), made my weekly deposit at the bank (and I don't mean sperm), picked up the two Armani shirts that I'd ordered on eBay (and they're real too) and my drycleaning as well. Now just getting ready for work.

Thanks Tiff for bringing back horrid memories of High School. I can't believe I had to remember radicals after all these years. All these repressed memories are returning. Eek...just kidding...ask me for help anytime.

This must be one of the most boring blog entries I've had. Does anybody want to know anything about me?

Bored?

I came across a link for something to do if you're truly bored (like Ben and I evidently were). No, it's not the ASCII table (that's really boring), but the little mouse games on the right hand side -- the "How Quick Are You" thing and the "click as many squares as you can" game. I spent about 20 minutes on the first one trying to anticipate in advance the red light (isn't that what those sprinters do?) and totally fluked out an incredible 0.04 seconds....my normal times are about 0.2 unfortunately.

I can't seem to do well in the second one, but have fun...

GAMES FOR THE BORED

I'M STILL SICK

I hate being sick. I hate buying useless medicine. Tonight's useless medicine is called Benylin Chest Congestion. Tastes like shit but I admit my throat feels a bit better. Too bad my nose is still a waterfall. At least I have Thursday off so I can relax at home....although I suspect Lily will probably call me for lunch, and who am I to pass up lunch with a beautiful girl?

Sneak Preview on the Apprentice: "The Last Supper" -- A restaurant-business assignment leads to a food fight between the teams. Not surprisingly, one of the teams also uses sex as a weapon....well I hope it's the women's team.

Stay Tuned (for another five years)

I've set myself a goal. Five years from now (on September 28, 2009), or sooner, I will be one of the floor managers at the casino where I work. Now this is a very tough-to-reach goal, but it's something to look forward to, because I think if I keep at it I will reach it. And hopefully by then I'll be married and all that.

Meanwhile, I'm still stuck with a sore throat. I wasted money on some Cepacol Sore Throat Spray. What kind of crap is this? Instead, most of the day I drank Nyquil. Now I'm tired.

I have an early start at work tomorrow (today) at 4pm so I'll keep it short. Hello and goodbye to all.

Ho Hum

After my miserable night at work, I am rewarded in the morning with a sore throat, which led to a pretty boring and depressing day. Work sucks, relationships suck, everything sucks. Do things necessarily get better?

I have to pick myself up and get my life going. Time is not on my side, and I still haven't really decided what to do with my life yet. Hopefully soon.

And to Tiff: As you have wished me luck with HER, I shall similarly wish you luck with HIM

More Suspicions

I don't think I understand women now, maybe somebody can enlighten me.

As mentioned in previous blog entries, a number of people at work have found it fun to try to set me up with you know who. The thing I can't understand is that Anna has told SOME people that she does not have a boyfriend and yet, has told OTHER people that she DOES. So what does that mean? Does no mean yes or does yes mean no? The silly thing now is, I could go right ahead and ask her, and whatever answer she gives... would she be telling the truth?

On a different note, I had after-work pho with two dealers from work. Yes, both were girls. And yes, both were pretty cute too. But both are quite young. Uh oh, here we go again.

It was a tough night at work. I made a stupid mistake that may or may not have gotten me into a bit of trouble. As usual, I was pissed off for the rest of the night, because one of my weaknesses is that I always let stupid mistakes affect me. I was out of focus and was really glad the night was over, and I guess especially glad that I got to hang out after work.

Suspicions

Something strange is going on at work. I could swear one of the floor managers at work (Andy) is actively trying to set me up with you know who. I hope he succeeds. She dissed me again after work. Mind you, it was like 6:15 in the morning and she said she was tired. Who the hell wouldn't be tired at 6 in the morning? Perhaps tomorrow.

I do sense that she's actually showing a bit of interest, and is currently in the midst of the obligatory "playing hard to get" portion of the chase. I assume this is all in the "Girls Book of How to Land a Guy". Poor girl has been limping as well, evidently she fell and scraped her little knee a few days ago.

By the way, WELCOME BACK Tiff! Did you have fun at camp? Enjoy your science walk and square dancing?

You're Fired

Ooh, Bill's back next week on the Apprentice, the show was pretty cool tonight. I can't wait for Crest Vanilla Mint Toothpaste to come out. Hopefully they'll do another show in one of the casinos like last year.

Meanwhile, tonight is an ugly midnight-6:30am shift, but after a while you get used to them. OK time for a shower.

Terrible Tuesday

Actually it wasn't that terrible, didn't do much on my day off except to take it easy. I got my "Color Wheel" today that I'd ordered from eBay for a couple of bucks. Interesting little contraption that's supposed to tell you what colors match with each other.

I have three days to finish an evaluation for one of the employees at work (part of my job as a pit boss at the casino), and unfortunately it's not going to be a good one. However, that's part of the job it can't be all a bed of roses.

Tiffy, I hope you have a fun time at camp, it will be kinda boring for a couple of days without that emu picture. Maybe I'll bug Ben for a few days (what the hell does 9-7-5-3 mean anyways?).

On a side note, THE STAR WARS TRILOGY just came out on DVD! At last! Too bad it's like almost 70 friggin dollars.

Manic Monday

It's a good thing I don't really take my chess seriously these days, because I suck at it. What a heartbreaking loss in the last round to Alexandra Botez's father. I was dead lost out of the opening, but managed to wiggle my way into a drawn opposite color Bishop's ending, only to make a boner move with about 2 minutes left in sudden death. How did the rest of you kids do?

I also lost $95 playing Mah Jongg tonight (kids, don't gamble, it's evil). Oh well, one more day off and then it's back to the grind. Hopefully Lily will call me for lunch, we haven't gone for a while. I'd swear she's snobbing me these days for some reason. We've gone from two or three lunches a week to not even one last week.

Meanwhile, here's a funny little link where you answer a bunch of questions and then out pops a celebrity that is considered your dream date. Have fun...

DREAM DATE

Chess Results?

Well how did my fellow chess-playing bloggers do? I had to leave early for work so I didn't get a chance to watch the end of any games. Tiff seemed to be gaining an advantage against that guy and Mr. Daswani had quite the attack on the Yipster. Did you both win?

I guess I'll see you both at the Grand Prix if I manage to get my ass out of bed.

I'm Too Sexy For My Shirt

I've now been back at work at the casino for three months now so technically I've passed my probation, but it's not official yet. They may extend my probation because sometimes they like to do that just so I'll try harder. But everything should be OK.

Strange, but today two different people complimented me on my shirt and tie combo (light green shirt, green patterned tie) with my brown Armani. Or perhaps it was the new cologne that I bought. The gay fellow at the counter suggested the ever subtle Thierry Mugler cologne and since it came in a set with your standard body gel and lotion (all for only $60) I bought it. Either it was too subtle or it didn't work, because I asked the manager to "sniff" me and she didn't smell anything.

Anyways, on another note, it seems that both Anna and I have Mondays and Tuesdays off for the next two weeks. Time to plan something...dinner, movie, chess (hah, sure), karaoke, who knows. Actually tonight I was a bit snobbish towards here, not because I was pissed off at her, but tonight I concentrated on work for once.

Well it's late (or early depending on one's perspective) so I bid my friends adieu for now. Tiffy and Benny, see you at chess.

Are you in Love?

Just because I read it(on another site), now I have to pass this on:

When you are together with that someone,
you pretend to ignore that person. But when that
special someone is not around, you might look
around to find them.
At that moment you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always
makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might
only go to that special someone.
Then you are in love.

Although that special was supposed to have
called you long back, to let you know of their
safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are
desperately waiting for that call!
At that moment you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-
mail from that special someone than other many
long e-mails,
you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase
all the messages in your answering machine
because of one message from that special
someone, you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you
would not hesitate to think of that special
someone, you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone
is just a friend", but you still cannot avoid
that person's special attraction. At that
moment, you are in love.

While you are reading this page, if someone
appears in your mind, then you are in love with
that person.

***copy this and paste in2 ur bulletin board..if
u dun u will hav bad luck in ur luv life***

Movie Nights

Two nights, two movies....
Last night (after work) I went to see Resident Evil: Apocalypse with my friend Albert. What a complete and utter waste of time. Don't waste your money, folks.

Tonight I went to see Hero with Jet Li and a bunch of famous Chinese actors. Much better. The story was a bit confusing but the setting, scenery and effects were amazing. Plus you got a really nice love story, which I am a sucker for. Not as sad as Titanic or The Notebook or Ghost, but it was nice nevertheless.

And now after a day off, it's back to the grind tomorrow. At last someone will be there. Then again, she might not if she's been sent to another location. Gee, I can't seem to stop thinking about her, does this mean I'm in......like?

Song of the Day

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And makin’ love was just for fun
Those days are gone

Livin’ alone
I think of all the friends I’ve known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobody’s home

All by myself
Don’t wanna be, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don’t wanna live, all by myself anymore

Hard to be sure
Some times I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

-- All By Myself (Eric Carmen)

Thank You Fairy Godmother

It was a rather uneventful day at work in Coquitlam. I managed to get there just in time for my noon-start shift, and they even told me not to start until 12:15, so I got a little break beforehand (as it turned out I didn't finish until 8:15pm so no difference).

It was about 5 or so when during my pacing among my four tables (each supervisor usually has four tables to watch) when I began thinking/daydreaming about Anna for the 629th time (to tell you the truth, most of the day I was thinking/daydreaming about the said Anna), wondering what she's doing now, wondering how I can best approach my attempt to capture her heart. And then, as if my Fairy Godmother (if I had one) suddenly waved her wand, Anna walked out of the breakroom. I just had to laugh and shake my head. I smiled and said hi. I would do more but then my four tables would be at the mercy of all those players.

Luckily for me there were no disputes and problems, because I sure lost my concentration. But for a few brief hours of my life, I was content again.

How Well Do You Know Me?

I found this on another site I frequent, so for the one or two people who actually read my blog, if you have nothing better to do you can try to answer these questions about me...

Subject: fill it in.. do it!!!
Message: Fill in the blanks about ME (if you
have
time) &
send it back to me (use REPLY!!!) but, first
send
a blank one out to all your friends so they can
return the favor to you.

Be honest or just be as funny as you can,
they're
really cool to get back, you might find out
something you had never realized before. It
only takes a few minutes, so just do it!!

1st - send this survey to everyone you know to
see how well they know you...

2nd - fill this survey out about the person who
sent it to you and send back to them...this time
it's
different! hahaha! i'm sure you'll have fun
reading what your friends think of you!
So, do u really know me? and what do you
think of me huh?


1. My name:

2. Where did we meet?

3. Take a stab at my middle name:

4. How long have you known me?

5. How well do you know me?

6. Do I smoke?

7. Do I believe in God?

8. When you first saw me..

9. My age?

10. Birthday?

11. Hair color?

12. Eye color?

13. Do I have any siblings?

14. Have you ever had a crush on me?

15. What's one of my favorite things to do?


16. Do you remember one of the 1st things I
said to you?

17. What's my favorite type of music?

18. What is the best feature about me?

19. Am I shy or outgoing?

20. Would you say I am funny?

21. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the
rules?

22. Any special talents?

23. Would you consider me a friend?

24. Would you call me preppy, slutty, a
homie, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam,
nerdy, snobby, silent, raver, or rocker, or
something else?

25. Have you ever seen me cry?

26. If there was one good nickname for me,
what would it be?

27. Are my parents still together?


28. What/Who do I love?

29. Have i ever told you I liked you?

30. Have I ever been in love?

31. When was the last time we spent time
together?

32. What is my favorite food?

33. My favorite movie?

34. Do i have a pet?

35. Do you think i'm cool?

36. When we're together, are you proud of
me?

37. Am i the type you'd want to marry?

38. If, in one hour, I'll be gone forever...what
will be your last words for me?

Now What?

What an idiot I am, for no apparent reason after the hockey game I decided to take a nap. I got up at 10:30pm and I've been wide awake since then. This sucks because I got called into a shift in Coquitlam tomorrow at 1pm. Well nothing a trip to Starbucks can't cure...haven't had my Casino Special for a while. In case anybody's wondering, I get a shot of espresso in a regular cup and poor Coca Cola into it. Tastes like shit but it wakes you up. Mind you, now I'm into a Triple Con Panna with caramel sauce.

Where the hell is the Color Wheel that I ordered from eBay?

Wow, my second consecutive post with no mention of Anna...oops...so much for that.

EMU POWER

This entry is just to say thank you to a good friend that I've only known since this year. She likes ducks and emus, and unfortunately our musical tastes are quite different. There does seem to be one group (Maroon 5) that we both seem to like. She has given amazing insight into many of my problems, so thanks!

Just Another Night (not)

"If at first you don't succeed...."

The night was too weird to properly put into perspective, and I am so tired...but I did promise a young lady (EMU POWER?) I would update my blog so here goes.

I was going to write a note to enclose with the rose but things were so rushed I didn't manage. It's silly because Anna doesn't really know if the rose is for her and who it's from. Anyways, she didn't really say much and actually put the rose into a little vase and put it on the breakroom table (does that mean anything). Then, when I came to work, I found out (through mixed messages) that Anna was going on holiday next week for 2 weeks on a cruise! Eeek! Two weeks without her? For no apparent reason the first few hours at work were stressful and my mind was not at work. Luckily there were no big problems that occurred.

Then I found out that Anna was going on a cruise NEXT YEAR. Meanwhile, the floor managers were conspiring together to set Anna and me up. One of them had asked Anna out for Vietnamese noodles after work (and was planning to suddenly change her plans so it would end up being just the two of us), but in the end, it wasn't meant to be. I am now at home updating my blog so for tonight, my quest is still ongoing.

However, I have not given up, but I do have to plan everything. I know that she knows I like her now (enough people have told her) so now the plan is to actually capture her heart, which will of course be difficult. But, to quote some of my favorite quotes:

No guts no glory
Live or die
It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all

Now I need some sleep.

Tune in Tomorrow

Well I did it and....

I had contemplated buying Anna a surprise gift for some time (like a secret admirer thing, although I'm sure it wouldn't be much of a secret) and today (well last night based on the time of this post) I decided to buy her a single red rose to put in her locker, which I did. Then the weirdness started.

When I got to work I quickly put the rose in her locker, as according to the schedule she was working in 30 minutes (it was 7:40pm at this time). Then I went out to work, and found out that the loveliest of lovelies was call in to work in Richmond. Damn. So now there's a rose in her locker which I assumed would remain until the next night when hopefully she was working at the location.

Little did I know that her Richmond shift was at 11pm or something like that, and I found out from someone that she had run into get her badge from her locker in a mad rush. Now the tough part: She WAS in a rush because I assume she had to get to work on time. From what "eyewitnesses" saw, she was frantically searching for her badge and since this rose was in the way, she threw it on the table, got her badge and rushed out. Hmm....so somebody put the rose on top of the locker. When I found out, I put the rose back in her locker. Now the following thoughts and questions are in my mind:

a) Should I make anything of the fact she threw the rose on the table? This can be interpreted as i) she was in a big rush ii) she thought it was a joke iii) she hates my guts. The silly thing was since I assumed she was to work at the location, I did NOT leave a note.

b) We are scheduled for the same start time tomorrow (well Sunday) so should I write a note now? She's going to go to work and find the same rose in her locker

c) There's no turning back now, I'm worried I did the wrong thing

Well, I guess the courtship continues on Sunday night, so stay tuned everyone.

Dating for Dummies

I had an early and short shift at work today (4pm-10pm) and only got a brief glimpse of Anna, but as usual she looked ravishing. Whether it's good or bad, certain people know of my feelings for her, and want to help me capture her heart. While I am flattered that people want to help, I'm of course weary that all this can backfire on me. All I know so far is that when one of my "secret agents" told Anna that I really liked her, she giggled and said "Oh no he doesn't". OK you budding psychologists, what does that mean?

In the Presence of Beauty

Most of my shift at work yesterday was on roulette, supervising the loveliest of lovely casino dealers (I'm sure you can guess who that would be). She seemed nervous and was making some silly mistakes (am I that charming?), but who am I to nitpick?

A funny thing happened near the end of the night, my ex-roommate (who I ALSO had a crush on at one point) was playing on the other roulette table. Ooh, beautiful women everywhere, how lucky can one guy get?

I'm BAAAACK

After a wonderful week working at the Coquitlam Casino, it's time to go back to the Holiday Inn with less players, less tips, and a much quieter atmosphere (which I hate). In 5 shifts of Coquitlam, I'll probably make as much tips as I would have in 7 or 8 shifts here. Oh well, that's the way it goes.

I'm debating on whether to apply for a transfer to Richmond or Coquitlam (the latter is my preference but is much farther so I'll have to take that into consideration). Meanwhile I wonder how bad the Holiday Inn will get.

Party Pics

If anybody is interested, pictures from the last casino party I went to are at the link below. Check out the strange guy with no clothes in some pictures, oh, that's me. The lovely Anna is in some of the pictures, you can have fun trying to figure out who she is (hint: wearing black and good at playing with casino chips).

I sure know how to attract girls eh?

PARTY PICS

Oops I Did it Again

Sunday started pretty badly as I was a few minutes late for work. Although I had calculated the bus schedule exactly so that I would get to work 20 minutes early, I did not calculate that I would forget my ID tag halfway during my trip. As a result I had to bus back and then take an ugly $40 bus ride to Coquitlam. Oh well.

Night time there was a staff party, another excuse to get drunk and make a move on Anna perhaps? As it was, there was a poker tournament there and who else would boot me but Anna herself. Then she had to go to work.

Meanwhile I got a little tipsy as usual and when Dancing Queen and YMCA came on, I decided to take off my top and start dancing (this sounds familiar doesn't it?). I think I'm getting a reputation for being pretty silly sometimes.

All About the Benjamins

And so begins one of the toughest weeks of my life. After getting off of work at 11:45pm, my next shift begins at 10:30am on Sunday, followed by shifts of 3:30pm Monday, 4pm Tuesday, and graveyard shifts of 11:30pm Friday and 11pm Saturday, all in Coquitlam. This will majorly suck considering I don't have a car, but that's the consequences of being on the bottom rung of the supervisor ladder. That's OK, the money will be good.

I may or may not have time to frequently update my blog but I will try as much as possible (then again I wonder if anybody is actually reading my crap).

And in case anybody was wondering, Anna will also be working in Coquitlam throughout the week but I don't believe we have any overlapping shifts. Alas.....

Straight Guy With a Queer Eye?

Strange, but lately I've noticed that I've been paying more and more attention to my appearance than I ever have (not that this is a bad thing). I've bought a lot of shirts lately for work, and now I realize it's important to buy ties that GO with the shirt (and whichever jacket/suit I choose). Changing a tie with a shirt may be a different combo, but it doesn't mean it's a nice looking combo.

I was rather impressed with the light green shirt and green-patterned tie that I came up with two nights ago. Now I even notice some of the ghastly color combinations that some of my coworkers wear to work....how could they?

Ho Hum

I was supposed to be supervising tonight, but one of the roulette dealers got ill and I had to replace her as a dealer, so again I was stuck on roulette. Two shifts totalling 18 hours and I must have spent 15 of them in the roulette pit. It gets so boring watching the same game, but that's what I get for being one of the few people who knows the game.

Anna wasn't there tonight, I will assume that she got sent either to Coquitlam or Richmond. I was too tired to have noticed her anyways.

Either today or tomorrow I'll have to do some shopping and get some shirts and ties and maybe those rimless eyeglasses I've bee thinking about.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Well perhaps one of the strangest nights at work occurred tonight. I made two very bad judgement calls which I won't get into detail here. I also got to work 2.25 hours of overtime and work the last 2 hours with NO BREAK. This may not seem like much, but casino policy for employees is to work one hour (sometimes 45 minutes) followed by a 15 minute break (which continues throughout the night). Anyways, I am so beat I can hardly think straight. But straight enough to say that Anna looked as beautiful as ever. But how do I get to know her better? She seems so untouchable at times.

Across the Crowded Room

Friday night I worked from 10:15pm-6:15am Saturday morning. And then, I worked from 2:15pm-10:15pm Saturday. Ouch! That triple espresso did wonders for me and somehow managed to get through the shift without any major problems. And the shift ended with the most beautiful vision, the lovely Anna walking through the door of the breakroom. She looked absolutely ravishing in her beige suit and lightly tinted hair. And that slight tinge of perfume. My God I sound like a little boy with his first crush. But she did look so beautiful.

My quest continues, I understand that it won't be easy to capture her heart, but I will try as hard as I can. I may win, I may lose, but either way I shall be gallant in the attempt.

Tomorrow is Another Day

Well Anna didn't show up (I think deep down I didn't expect her too) but it's only a small setback in my quest for her heart.

As for the karaoke, as usual it was a lot of fun! I got to sing my karaoke favorites: That's Why (Michael Learns to Rock), My Way (Frank Sinatra), How Deep is Your Love (Bee Gees) and some others. I downed a few beers but not enough to make me dance on the table. Afterwards Vandy and I went for a drive and talked about things. I guess I never realized it, but Vandy is one of my best friends in the world, and I owe her a lot for her advice. I wish her the best in her new position at the Coquitlam Casino.

Let's hope my hangover isn't as worse as the last one.

Destiny Awaits (Maybe)

It's hours before the "big karaoke" night which I'm a bit pessmistic about. I'm almost sure that Anna won't be showing up but I guess that's OK. Ever since I went a bit overboard the last time I was drinking perhaps it's not a good idea to have her nearby when I start exhibiting strange behaviours. Nevertheless I'm sure she'll be on my mind a lot. And if somehow she happens to be there, then I will make the most of it.

To All The Girls I've Loved Before

I'm in a reflective mood this morning. On my walk home from work I started thinking about all the girls I've known that I've had a crush on so to speak (although in some cases I think I was actually in love). So for all those who have known me for a while (and even those who are interested/nosy), here is a list of all the members of the opposite sex who I have had so called feelings for...

Christine Yan -- One never forgets his first crush and this was it. Way back in 1983, it was French 12... seems like only yesterday. And to think I wasted 17 years of my life thinking that girls were icky. Christine changed all that, but just like that she was gone; something about graduating from High School.

Gloria Yan -- Anybody who's known me since High School knows that Gloria has been (and always will be?) the one that I will always remember. She's my Glory of Love, my Eternal Flame. There was a time when she was my best friend, as we'd share long phone conversations talking about relatively nothing. It was like we knew more about each other than anybody else knew. Perhaps the one big mistake in my life was to stop pursuing her when she was deep into her studies, but at least I can say I knew her. "It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all".

Genevieve Garcia -- Another friend who could never be more than that. We shared such wonderful times together, when the gang would go clubbing and just hanging out together. I remember the infamous 10-page letter that I wrote to her once when she was away in the Philippines. In that letter I probably poured my heart out more than I had ever done so before. And through it all, we remained friends.

Nami Fukasaka -- One of the few women who actually returned my affection. And even more strange was that I SHE was the one that had a crush on me. I guess I was so flattered that we were actually going out. No more details are necessary except that it is a good feeling to be loved, even if you do not feel the same for her.

Lily Chen -- Fast forward 10 years (quite the dry spell). We met through a mutual friend and have quickly become best friends. Yes, there was a time when I thought she was my destiny but it was too late, as she was engaged. Perhaps if I had met her years ago things would be different. But I'm so glad I've met my 007 girl.

And now we come to the present. Yes, there seems to be someone who is trying to get on this list, but it is too early to tell. Perhaps she will be forgotten shortly, or perhaps she will be the one to make me happy for the rest of my life. Who knows what the hands of fate will bring me?

No Means Yes?

Anna's playing hard to get.... she's "busy" on Thursday. So I'll have to poor on the charm at work tomorrow if I want to have my beloved at the karaoke.

And Then There Was One

"Love is a Many Splendored Thing

First of all, I think it's time I referred to #1 as Anna, because that is her name, and although she is #1 in my mind, it's silly to hide her name just because I'm scared she'll find this blog. Anna, if somehow you are reading this, then so be it. Now you know you have caught my eye, I hope you will consider a date with me.

As for "The Kid", all feelings for her have disappeared, but I'm sure we can be friends.

Meanwhile, back to my daily/nightly report. It was a rather uneventful night at work but at least I got to see the beautiful one. I even managed to sneak a few smiles at her when our eyes happened to meet "across the crowded room". There's something mysterious yet attractive about her, whether it's her innocence and quietness or just her beauty, it was difficult to concentrate at work sometimes.

I have to try to get somebody to work for me Thursday so I can ask Anna out....and hopefully she says yes! Stay tuned.

Sleeeeeeepppppy

Only about three hours of sleep after the drinking binge, then went to a family dinner where I managed to finish a glass of wine before working....not a good idea. It wasn't my best night at work because I just couldn't concentrate. And my beautiful #1 got called into the Richmond location so I didn't see her. Funny, "The Kid" was there and I barely talked with her. I guess the fad has worn out by now. I'm trying to get enough nerve to ask #1 out for the karaoke thing on Thursday. Wish me luck and remind me not to drink too much this time.

Bartender...Gimme Another Drink

"You Drive Me Crazy"

Last night (well this morning from 6am-10am) we had a going away party for one of the casino managers who is transferring to another location. And what else do casino people do at parties but drink, drink, and then drink some more? I was behaving myself for a while, just eating food and limited to one beer. The reason for this was that #1 just happened to show up and for a while we were sitting beside each other. Hmm, she is such a quiet girl, didn't say much. We did joke around a little bit...and then I started to guzzle down rum and cokes. And then they put the TV on MuchMoreMusic and blasted the volume. And then Britany Spears (Crazy) came on and for no apparent reason I jumped on the table and started dancing...oops. Somebody started to unbutton my shirt and unbuckling my belt...hmm...and then somebody handed me $20 for no reason (so I ended up grabbing another drink). Meanwhile #1 moved away a bit to another table....oops. Guess I had three or four too many rum and cokes. Oh well, the quest continues, there's another party next week, but I haven't asked her out yet, maybe tonight.

And now I must hope my hangover is gone by 11pm as I must go back to work.

Life's a Bitch Sometimes

"What Have I Done to Deserve This?" -- Pet Shop Boys

Not the best day at work, it's frustrating watching people make the same mistakes over and over, even though they have been told the proper procedures. What's worse is that there are supervisors who don't know a lot of the procedures, and they in turn tell dealers the wrong things. Then when I tell them, they say they learned something else from another supervisor. Geez, where do they find some of these people?

Sorry, just ranting, I just want a good sleep hopefully. Too much stress....

The Fever Returns Once Again

"I love to watch you dance Tony" -- Saturday Night Fever

How can I forget? My favorite movie of all time was on and ended just before I had to work (perfect timing). Yes, it's come to a point where I can pretty much act out the whole movie from being to end (as can a certain other good friend of mine).

Work First Fun Second

"Lead me on, tease me all night long" -- Lead Me On by Maxine Nightingale

Interesting night at work. I was supervising and whose table would I be supervising but the "mystery woman" (from now on she will be referred to as #1). It's a weird feeling; I'm attracted to her and yet my job is to be as strict and harsh as I can, because she was dealing roulette for the second night ever. She was making a lot of nervous mistakes, but what could I do but try to calm her down. The alternative was to bring out the whip (only figuratively of course) and be as mean to her as other supervisors may be, but that may kiss any chance I have of a possible relationship yadda yadda yadda. Otherwise it was a rather dull night at work. Now for some well-deserved sleep and then we'll see what the next day will bring. I'm sure Lily will call me for lunch in about four hours. Who needs sleep when the gorgeous one wants to have lunch?

Two Girls?

"Here's looking at you kid" -- Casablanca

Got lots of advice regarding the "kid" and the "mystery woman". Funny how their names sound so familiar. Even though everything points to the "kid" being too young for me to consider pursuit, one never knows. Time will tell; at least I'll be back to work tonight so I can consider the options and possibilities.

It's nice to have friends that care and can help.

Dreams

"If I am dreaming, then may I never sleep. If I am sleeping, then may I never awake" -- Karate Kid II

What was just an afternoon nap became such a wonderful time. It wasn't even sexual or anything, but "The Kid" and I were on a cruise just lying in the sun talking. It was so innocent, but so beautiful. I haven't had a dream like this for a while. What ruined this wonderful time was that I was just awakened by a phone call. Alas, maybe tonight?

Day Off

"May the Force be with you, always"

Been up since 1am with nothing to do but surf and listen to music, thinking about the loves of my life, wondering if I will find that special someone someday. Even if none of them end up as my mate at least they are my friends.

Same Shit Different Day

Movie quote of the day: "Love means never having to say you're sorry" -- Love Story

There seems to be a lot of infighting at work, I wonder what's going on. All I know from my years in the casino is to "Trust no one". At times it seems like everybody wants to stab your back. There are probably only two or three people at the casino who I consider my friend. The others are merely acquaintances, although I "pretend" to be their friend.

"Why can't we all just get along?"

Another Day Another Love?

Movie quote of the day: "Hang on tightly, let go lightly" -- Croupier

Have I managed to find a member of the female population at work that is closer to my age range? I don't know much about her but I guess that's what dating is for (?). Now the question is if I want to proceed. Do I go with the "friends first" plan or just go for it? Going out is just as hard now when I'm 38 as it was when I was 18 (much harder in fact).

At least I have my love song CD's to guide me.

Quote of the Day

"It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all"

Life and Love

I've spent the last three hours listening to old classic songs from the 80's. I started with dance tunes and then turned to love songs to put me into another depressing mood. Why are almost all my friends happily married with children and I'm still by myself? Will I ever find my true love?

I'm at a crossroads now because there IS someone who has caught my eye and who I have spent the better part of each day thinking about. But is she too young for me? Is there such a thing? Time will tell.

All Work and No Play

Working the graveyard shift again. At times I don't even know if it's AM or PM. But at the end of it all I get a nice paycheque so who's to complain?

My First Post

Well this is my first post, so I'll keep it short and sweet for the time being. Hello everyone, I don't know who will read this but please email me with any thoughts.