Monday, January 31, 2005

Gonna break these chains around me
Gonna learn to fly again
May be hard, may be hard
But I’ll do it
When I’m back on my feet again

Soon these tears will all be dryin’
Soon these eyes will see the sun
Might take time, might take time
But I’ll see it
When I’m back on my feet again

When I’m back on my feet again
I’ll walk proud down this street again
And they’ll all look at me again
And they’ll see that I’m strong

Gonna hear the children laughing
Gonna hear the voices sing
Won’t be long, won’t be long
Till I hear them
When I’m back on my feet again

Gonna feel the sweet light of heaven
Shining down it’s light on me
One sweet day, one sweet day
I will feel it
When I’m back on my feet again


And I’m not gonna crawl again
I will learn to stand tall again
No I’m not gonna fall again
Cos I’ll learn to be strong

Soon these tears will all be dryin’
Soon these eyes will see the sun
Won’t be long, won’t be long
Till I see it
When I’m back on my feet again
When I’m back on my feet again
I’ll be back on my feet again

Back on My Feet Again -- Michael Bolton

The Day After

I'm trying to get over the disappointment of the non-promotion, and it's not easy. I can try to make myself feel better by saying things like "It wasn't meant to be" or "Maybe next time" but either way, it's tough to wait all this time and then not get what you wanted. But in the end, I think I didn't get the promotion because I really haven't been back at the casino long enough. After all, it has only been seven months. All I can do now is apply myself to supervising, and wait patiently for the next promotion. I may have fallen, but I just have to get up and keep walking forward. There's always next time.

Sunday, January 30, 2005

I prepared myself for the bad news and lo and behold the news was bad. I did not get the promotion. I had mixed feelings throughout the night at work. On one hand, I was obviously disappointed I did not get the position, considering that I was REQUESTED to apply from somebody at Head Office. However, I'm also flattered (for lack of a better word) that I was considered. All I can do now is apply myself and wait for the next promotion. I can only assume that I'll have a better chance the next time around.

Life goes on...

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Midnight is Here (in about 4 hours)

I decided not to go to the chess tournament on the weekend. It would be fruitless because my mind would not be on the games, and I would be too tired at work. Instead, I went to dinner last night (Friday) with Lily and Mei, then went to Lily's house to play Big 2. We actually stayed up until 6am? Hmm, cool, just like I was working.

I went to bed at around 7am and had an incredibly wonderful sleep, waking up just before 5pm. I haven't had a relaxing sleep like that in a while, and I'm surprised I did considering the stress I have been through. Nevertheless, I'm pretty sure I'll find out tonight whether or not I got the floor manager position. I'm pessimistic but still hopeful. So I will sit here for another four hours before learning my fate.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Midnight is Near

I just finished talking to a friend who works in Richmond who also applied for the floor manager position. He was working tonight and on one of his breaks they gave him the "bad news" that he didn't get promoted. Unluckily (luckily?) I have two days off, so I'll either get the news when I work on Saturday....or they'll call me? But at least I'll know.

Meanwhile, to take my mind off of things, it's time for The Apprentice.


Whoever said "no news is good news" is full of shit. No news just makes things more stressful. Thankfully I have two days off to relax and not think about it too much. It has affected my work and I'm a mess at times. JUST TELL ME YES OR NO.

Other than lunch with the lovely Lily, I don't have plans Thursday night. Perhaps I'll hang out with Albert again or something. I'm debating on whether or not to go to the chess tournament on the weekend. I haven't played in so long I'll probably suck, but who knows.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Bad News (Maybe)

My chances of getting the promotion just took a dip. Without getting into detail, there was a small restructuring at Head Office, and one of the departments basically got disbanded. As a result, two of its members suddenly got "promoted" to floor manager. So now from what I gather, there are only four more positions available. I don't like my chances. Either way, I wish they would just TELL ME. It has now been eleven days since my interview and I've lost sleep every night.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

No News is Excruciating

There is STILL no news concerning the promotion. I have no choice but to go to work and try to concentrate. Tonight was tough, as I guess I had one of my off days. I was stuck closing tables with new dealers who were slow and uncoordinated. My stressful state didn't help matters at all.

The thing is, everybody in management seems to think that the news will come out this week, and I hope they are right. Whether the answer is yes or no, I JUST WANT TO KNOW! This is like hearing a doorbell and not being able to answer it. Meanwhile, the wait continues.

Monday, January 24, 2005

Rest in Peace, Mr. Carson

Johnny Carson passed away yesterday. I still remember staying up as a little kid watching The Tonight Show, and growing up with him. Nothing against Jay Leno, but the show just wasn't the same after Johnny left in 1992. Johnny and I seemed to share the same sense of humor. There were nights when I would laugh so hard I could barely breathe.

And now he's gone.

Can it Be?

Tonight I wore the new black suit, with a simple white shirt and gold tie. As usual, it was well liked.

Something weird happened. Two of the floor managers were practically congratulating me on getting the promotion, even though there has been no announcement. Perhaps they know something or have received some sort of an email from Head Office. This is odd because tomorrow is "Day 10" after my interview, and I was told that I would probably find out in 10 days whether or not I got the job. So we'll see.

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Sharp Dressed Man

My new navy suit made its debut at work tonight, accompanied by the infamous hot pink shirt and a nice complementary pink/blue/white tie. Tomorrow will be the new black suit but I haven't decided on the shirt/tie combination yet. Somebody suggested a white shirt (boring?) with a yellow/gold tie. I'll see what mood I'm in. I'd been thinking about the LIGHT pink shirt.

Work has been a bit stressful lately, largely because of the unknown promotion. I'm feeling a bit paranoid at times that something will go wrong. I just want to know whether or not I get it. The wait is agonizing.

Friday, January 21, 2005


I went to see Elektra with Albert, Ryan and Tanya. The movie was OK, not what I expected. This was more like one of those Japanese Anime things, featuring weird characters with strange powers. I didn't particularly enjoy any of the fighting sequences, but overall I guess the movie was 7/10. Jennifer Garner looked nice in her red outfit and the Oriental-looking Typhoid was gorgeous. Hey, any movie with two girls kissing can't be all that bad.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Couch Potato

Watching the early version of The Apprentice while waiting to go out for dinner and movie. It looks like "Street Smarts" will prevail over "Book Smarts" tonight but we'll see.

Tonight I get to see the lovely Jennifer Garner in Elektra.

I can't think of anything more to say so....see ya.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Rain Rain Go Away

The rain has been terrible around here. There was a mudslide in North Vancouver where my uncle lives. His house is OK (but obviously lots of mud) but the same can't be said for his neighbor. Evidently one of his neighbors died from the mudslide. That's sad and scary. At least my relatives are OK.

It looks like the next few days will be quite miserable weatherwise, but not enough to pass up my weekly Thursday lunch with Lily. I'll probably go see a movie with Albert tomorrow, now that he's by himself (it's a long story). And meanwhile I wait anxiously for that phone call from Head Office saying whether or not I got the floor manager position.

Until next time...

Monday, January 17, 2005

Life and Times of a Shopaholic

My apologies for not posting on the weekend. It was rather uneventful except for the fact that Lily and I went shopping (again) on Saturday). We went downtown to Pacific Center. We decided to go to Holt Renfrew and check out the Louis Vuitton section. I need a wallet, but they are so bloody expensive. However, LV rules so if I get the floor manager position, I'll definitely buy one. Lily ordered a nice purse which "only" cost $900 or so. I also went into the Hermes section, where they sell ties for ridiculous prices. No I didn't buy one.

It seems that everybody is assuming I'll get the floor manager position, which is good or bad. I guess I should prepare for an eventual promotion, but also prepare for NOT getting the job (in which case I shouldn't be disappointed). But it's almost like everybody is expecting I'll get it. We'll see.

I have an early start on Monday so I'll head to sleep early (as if 7am can be considered early).

Friday, January 14, 2005

Accepting Donations

I had lunch with Lily today, since I had the interview on Thursday. She originally wanted to go shopping downtown tomorrow (Saturday), but I mentioned that I was going to go to Metrotown to get some suits at Grafton. So we decided to do so at about 4pm after she was off work. We drove to Metrotown and I proceeded to buy two suits (one black, one navy) for $615 or so (both suits were 50% off). The weird thing was I was wearing my hot pink shirt at the time, and it matched quite well with the black suit. It's true what they say, anything goes with a black suit. We also did some random shopping; she bought some nice little pendants for her niece and we had a nice walk around the mall. Tomorrow we will continue our shopping excursions downtown before I work at 10:15pm.

I also bought a USB cable thing for my new phone, and just received my CD from eBay that has a bunch of wallpapers and ringtones for the phone. Hmm, shall I go with ABBA?

All I know is just like that my bank account has decreased by $700, so if anybody wants to donate to the "Make Jason Look Good" Fund, please go right ahead. Nighty night.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

And Now the Waiting Begins

The interview went fairly well today, as I was fairly prepared for it. However, it's hard to say if my answers were exactly what they were looking for. By the way, I was interviewed by three (!) people at once; two people from Head Office and one of the shift managers at the Holiday Inn. It was intimidating at first but I managed to relax myself. Now we'll see what happens, and there's nothing else more I can do at this point.

The Final Countdown

I'm off for the interview of my life now. Wish me luck.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Point of No Return

Here I am, sitting at home at 11:30pm, trying to calm my nerves as I await my big interview tomorrow in exactly 12 hours. There's nothing more I can do now but accept whatever cards I am dealt. If I fail and don't get the position, that's OK. I'll still be a supervisor and can apply the next time. But if I impress the powers that be enough, I'll see myself promoted. It's strange, part of me wants to get promoted and part of me is still hesitant about moving up so quickly. But when an opportunity comes your way, you have to grab it. So we'll see what happens tomorrow.

Monday, January 10, 2005

Destiny Finally Awaits

I have an interview on Thursday morning (11:30am) for the relief floor manager position! I guess there's no lunch with Lily (I actually found something more important than lunch with Lily!) but we'll probably reschedule or something.

Now I have less than 3 days to prepare. I hate interviews but I know they are a part of almost any job application, so all I can do is try my best. Hopefully the result will be something good.

Meanwhile, I'm just relaxing at home before an 11:15pm start at work.


I forgot to report on the debut of my hot pink shirt two nights ago (Saturday). I definitely turned a few heads. Some were shocked to say the least, but generally the shirt got very good reviews. Somebody said "it takes a real man to wear pink". In a way that's right, some people wear the same old crap every day and they look dull. My philosophy is to be different. Tonight I wore my purple shirt with the olive green Armani and a perfectly matched purple/green tie.

Unfortunately the next three nights I'm stuck wearing a white shirt and black pants, as I'm dealing! In fact I have 6 dealing shifts out of 10 this schedule; quite a refreshing change from all the supervising.

I am still waiting for "the interview" for the floor manager position, but inside sources seem to indicate I have an extremely good chance to get it. And if I don't, then that's fine, because in a way I almost hope I don't get it. To achieve such a high position in so short a time is quite overwhelming. But whatever happens happens.

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Loud Pink

Michael picked me up at about 12:30pm and we went to Metrotown with her little daughter Renee. We went to the pet store to look at the little kitties and doggies and fishies, then had some lunch at the new and improved Food Fair. Then it was time for Uncle Jason to buy that loud pink shirt and equally loud pink tie. Do I have the nerve to wear it tonight? we'll see.

It's hard to believe it has snowed in Vancouver for four days straight now, almost as hard to believe that it was snowing Vegas too! What's going on?

OK time for a little nap before work.

Was it Worth it?

I had dinner with Michael after he was off work at 9pm because he had the money for me from the football pool. I'm rich! I'm rich! We went to the Cactus Club, the restaurant with the coolest washrooms around.

Afterwards we had nothing else to do, so what else is left but to go to the casino to play some hold'em. We both had lousy cards but somewhow both managed to make money. Michael made an astounding $20 and I earned an extra $5 for 2 hours of work. Yuk. I'd have lost if I didn't practically force myself to play A-8. Luckily the third and fourth cards were 8's.

Friday, January 07, 2005


What the hell is going on? Is this Vancouver? Anyways, I guess for once I hope I don't have any shifts in Coquitlam, because I hear there's a lot more snow there. It's tough enough for me to walk four blocks to work at the Holiday Inn.

In other news, my new Motorola phone came today and is charging as we speak. Now I have a camera phone and must now make the important decision of picking a decent ringtone. This phone has MP3-quality ringtones (even voice ones!).

And now, back to your regularly scheduled programming.

Thursday, January 06, 2005

The Bad News

I went to visit the eye doctor today and the bad news was revealed. I have a form of glaucoma (not sure which one yet). At least it was diagnosed early so it's not like I'm going to go blind any time soon. But the eye will get worse over time and now it is imperative that I take steps to control the deterioration. The doctor has prescribed certain eyedrops and she will see in three months if they work.

For now I just can't worry about it, but I do have to take the drops every day. Life can be a bitch sometimes, but I can't let it bother me. On one hand, I must keep the prevention steps ongoing, but on the other hand I must ensure life goes on. If I'm lucky, I'll have my eyesight until I'm 100, who knows.

I spent most of the day at Metrotown just walking around. I considered buying an extremely "bright" loud pink shirt, but couldn't match it with anything I have. Even I will find it difficult to wear this to work. But I never back down from a challenge so we'll see. I was going to go see a movie but there was nothing that jumped out at me, other than Meet the Fockers, but I wasn't in the mood.

Ultimate Quiz

OK since Tiffany and Ben both did this thing and I have some time, I will fill out the great Ultimate Quiz we go...

Full name: Jason Feng
Nicknames: MJGod, Fengmeister, Fengenheimer, Jay
Sex: Male
Age: 38
Birthday: June 29, 1966
Place of Birth: Hong Kong
Siblings: 4 half-sisters (that I know of)
Mother’s name: Brenda
Father’s name: Peter
Step-parents’ names: George
Pets: none
Height: 6'1"
Weight: 185 pounds
Zodiac sign: Cancer
Religion: Christian
Hair Color: Black
Blood type: red
Eye Color: Brown
Eye Color of Choice: Brown
Writing Hand: Right
Current Residence: Vancouver, BC
Occupation: Casino Pit Boss
Status: Single


Nervous Habits: None that come to mind
Do you bite your nails?: Sometimes
Are you double jointed?: Yes
Can you roll your tongue?: No
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: Yes and I can also wiggle my ears
Can you blow smoke rings?: Yes
Can you blow spit bubbles?: Yes
Can you flare your nostrils?: Yes
Can you cross your eyes?: Yes
Tattoos: Yes
Piercings and where?: None
Do you make your bed daily?: No


What goes on first, bra or underwear?: Underwear
Which shoe goes on first?: Right
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: Yes
On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet?: $50
What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: None
Would you rather be on time and look OK or 10 minutes late and look great?: On time
Favorite Piece of Clothing: Olive Green Armani suit
Pajamas: None
Type of music: 70's and 80's
Makeup you generally wear: None
Any bodyart: Just the tattoo on my back
Hair drying method: Air dry
Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?: All the time
Do you paint your nails?: No


Wearing: My underwear, but tonight I worked in white shirt and black slacks
Listening to: Phantom of the Opera soundtrack
Thinking of: Promotion at work (maybe)
Taste in your mouth: Nothing
How are you?: I’ve been better, I've been worse


Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut?: Twirl
Have you ever eaten Spam?: Yes
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Pistachio
How many cereals in your cabinet?: None
What's your favorite beverage?: Coca Cola
What's your favorite restaurant?: Gotham
What utensils do you use to eat pizza?: Hands
Do you cook?: Only things that go in the microwave or my George Foreman grill


How often do you brush your teeth?: Onece a day
How often do you shower/bathe?: Every day
How long does your shower last?: 10 minutes


Do you swear?: Yes
Do you ever spit?: Yes


Actor/Actress: all time would be Audrey Hepburn, current would be Natalie Portman
Animal: Horse
Food: Prime Rib
Month: June
Day: Thursday
Cartoon: The Incredibles
Flower: Rose
Shoe Brand: Aldo
Band(s)/Singer(s): ABBA, Bee Gees
Subject in school: English
Color: Red
Sport: Hockey
Body part on you: Lips
Body part on the opposite sex?: Legs
TV show: Days of Our Lives
10 Best Looking Male Celebs: Haha check out The OC…
10 Best Looking Female Celebs: Natalie Portman, Keira Knightley, Jennifer Tilly, Charlize Theron, Nicole Kidman, Sheryl Crow, Beyonce, Alexandra Kosteniuk, Jenna Jamieson, Asia Carrera
Holiday: Christmas
Book: anything about poker
Vacationing Spot: Vegas
Thing To Do In The Spring: Vegas
Thing To Do In The Summer: Vegas
Thing To Do In The Fall: Vegas
Thing To Do In The Winter: Vegas
Perfume or Cologne: Thierry Mugler
Game: Chess
Quote: “It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.”
Scent: Vanilla
Movie: Muriel's Wedding
Season: Fall
Author: Phil Hellmuth
Relative: Uncle Cosmas
Shampoo: Head & Shoulders
Commercial: Telus ones
Magazine: Games Magazine
Non-alcoholic drink: Coca Cola
Thing to do on the weekend: watch TV
Boys name: I'll stick with my own, Jason
Girls name: Gloria or Annie
Hangout: Tea Hut
Feeling: Happiness
Store: Sears (Men's Wear Section)
Dog breed: Basset Hound
Cat breed: Siamese
Bird breed: Budgie
Fish breed: Shark
Day of the year: June 29


The CD Player: Phantom of the Opera soundtrack
Person you talk most on the phone with: Michael
Ever taken a cab?: Yes
Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?: Yes
What color is your bedroom?: White
Do you use an alarm clock?: Yes
Name one thing you are obsessed with: Looking good
Have you ever skinny-dipped with the opposite sex?: No
Ever sunbathed nude?: No
Window seat or aisle?: Aisle


What's your sleeping position?: Under my blanket, curled sideways
What kind of bed do you like?: King Size
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: No
Do you snore?: Yes
Do you sleepwalk?: No
Do you talk in your sleep?: Yes
Do you sleep with a stuffed animals?: No
How about with the light on?: No
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: No


Do you glow in the dark?: No
Do the walls talk to you?: No
Do you talk back?: No
Can you lick your elbow?: No, but I’ve tried…
What is the square root of meep?: √meep
Do you worship ramen noodles?: Yes
Do you believe in the 5 second rule?: 3 seconds for me
What does "n double o d l e s" meen to you?: No friggin idea
What is the meaning of life?: To survive


Club or houseparty: Club
Tea or coffee: Coffee
Achiever or slacker: Achiever
Beer or cider: Cider
Drinks or shots: Drinks
Single or taken: Single
Pen or pencil: Pen
Gloves or mittens: Black gloves
Pop or soda: Pop
Food or candy: Food
Cassets or cds: CD's
Matches or a lighter: Lighter
Coke or Pepsi?: Coke
Oranges or apples?: Apples
One pillow or two?: Two
Deaf or blind?: Deaf rather than blind
Pools or hot tubs?: Hot Tub
Blondes or brunettes?: Brunette
Tall or short?: Tall
TV or radio?: TV
Beach or pool?: Pool
Tic-Tacs or Certs?: Certs
Snooze button or jump out of bed?: Snooze
Sunrise or Sunset?: Sunset
Hamburger or Cheeseburger?: Hamburger
Morning or night?: Night
Sports or news?: Sports
Bikini or one-piece?: Bikini
Indoors or outdoors?: Indoors
Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?: Christmas Eve
Cake or ice cream?: Ice cream
Bert or Ernie?: Ernie
Spicy or Mild?: Mild
Spearmint or Peppermint?: I hate both, but would choose peppermint
Call or Write?: Write
Peanut Butter or Jelly?: Jelly
Hamburger or Hot Dog?: Hot Dog
Dog or Cat?: Cat
Bath or shower?: Shower
Book or Movie?: Movie
Green or Red apples? Red
Rain or Snow?: Rain
Nike or Adidas?: Nike
Hot or Cold: Cold
Lace or satin: Lace
Blue or red: Red
New or old: New
Give or recieve: Receive
Wool or cotton: Cotton
Rose or daisy: Rose
Private school or public school: Private
Chocolate milk or white milk: Chocolate milk
Celsius or faerenheit: Celsius
Math or art: Math


Homosexuality: Indifferent
Brand names: Indifferent
Abortion: Up to the mother
Religion: To each his own
Eating disorders: Sad
PMS: Happy I don't go through it
Animal rights: Survival of the fittest
Love at first sight: Yes
God: He exists
Marilyn Manson: Scary
Guy bands: Who cares
Spice Girls: Who cares
Premarital sex: If both are OK with it
Titanic: One of the greatest
Jerry Springer: Depressing
Suicide: Cowardly
Self mutilation: Scary
South Park: Dumb
Dreams: Can't figure out some of the ones I have
Aliens: Non believer
Horoscopes: Silly
Heaven: It's there
Hell: It's there
Reincarnation: Maybe
Transvestites: Scary, but some of them look damn good
Pop music: As long as it's the 80's, cool
Rap: No thank you
80's music: Yes please
Punk: Disgusting


What’s the prettiest instrument: Saxophone
What’s the prettiest part of the body: Legs
Biggest fears: Failure
Do you live in a moment: I try to
Do you care about looks: Yes
Do you like your handwriting: No
Looking forward to: Promotion at work
Favorite weather: As long as I can golf it's fine
Do you ever wish you were somebody else: Yes


Giving hugs?: Yes
Receiving hugs?: Yes
Taking walks in the rain?: Yes
Going on stage?: Yes


Drink: Yes
Smoke: No
Do drugs: No
Eat meat: Yes
Insomnia: Sometimes
Eat a lot: Yes
Sleep a lot: Not enough
Eat sushi: Yes
Bake: Rarely
Get motion sickness: No
Get along with your parents: Yes
Like to drive: Yes
Type with fingers on the right keys: Yes
Wear contacts: Yes
Have any siblings: This was asked earlier, I have 4 half sisters that I know of


Kill: Nobody at the moment
Hear from: Genevieve Garcia because I haven't talked to her in years
Get really wasted with: Dennis because he gets as rowdy as I do
Look like: Brad Pitt because the ladies would be all over me
Be like: Jimmy Ho, because he gets the most respect at the casino
Avoid: Steve because he's a loser


Time you took a shower?: 6:30pm January 5 (8 hours ago)
Time you watched Bambi: No
Time you cried?: December 30, when I watched Phantom of the Opera
Time you talked on the phone?: With Kim about 30 minutes ago (2:30am January 6)
Time you read a book?: last month
Time you Punched someone?: Haven't been in a fight in ages
Time you got a real letter: It's been a long long time
Time you got an email: 10 seconds ago
Tv program you watched: Amazing Race
Thing you purchased: dinner at the casino
Movie you saw at the theatre: Phantom of the Opera
Time you were grounded: I don’t get grouded
Words you typed: I don’t get grounded
Phone numbers you called: Kim's
Person you talked to on the phone: Kim


You touched: Lubna
Talked to: Kim
Hugged: Lubna
Instant messaged: Johnny
Kissed: Anna
Who broke your heart: Gloria was the last person who truly broke my heart


Eat: At home I eat in front of my computer
Dance: At a nightclub
Cry: Wherever
Wish you were: Vegas


Been on a date with one of your best friends: Yes
Loved/Liked somebody so much it made you cry: Yes
Drank alcohol: Yes
Done drugs: No
Broken the law: Yes
Ran away from home: No
Broken a bone: No
Cheated on a test: Yes
Skinny dipped: Yes
Played Truth or Dare: No
Flashed someone: No
Mooned someone: No, but I got mooned once at a karaoke
Kissed someone you didnt know: No
Been on a talkshow/gameshow: Tried out ofr Jeopardy once
Been in a fight: Yes
Ridden in a fire truck: Yes
Been on a plane: Yes
Come close to dying: No
Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: No
Given someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: Yes
Eaten a worm/mud pie: No
Swam in the ocean: No
Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: Yes
Snuck out of the house: No
Stayed up till four on the phone: Yes
Made a prank phone call: Yes
Tipped over a portapotty: No
Used your parents credit card : No
Skipped school: Yes, to watch Return of the Jedi
Fell asleep in the shower/bath: No
Fell asleep while eating: No
Fell asleep while driving: Yes
Driven a car: Yes
Met someone famous: Lots of them come to the casino so yes
Wanted to die: Yes
Been in a school play: Yes
Cried in public: Yes
Let a friend cry on your shoulder: Yes
Gone to church: Yes
Read the bible: Yes
Fished: Yes
Seen someone die: No


Boyfriend?: No
Girlfriend?: No
Sexuality?: Yes
Virginity existant?: No
Children?: None
Current crush: None
Been in love?: Yes
Been out with someone?: Yes
Too Shy?: Perhaps
Been hurt?: Yes
Have you ever said "I love you" and meant it?: Yes
Cheated on someone: No
Gone out with someone you only knew for three days?: Yes
Have/had an online relationship?: Yes
Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?: Lily if she wasn't married


Fracture history: None
Operation history: None
Allergies: None
Had stiches: No
Cavities: Lots
Phobias: None


The most embarassing CD in your collection: I'm proud of all of them
Your bedroom like: A Mess
Your favorite thing for breakfast: Sleep
Your favorite thing for lunch: Whatever Lily chooses
Your favorite thing for dinner: Prime Rib
Your favorite resturaunt: Gotham


A vegetarian?: No
A good student?: Was
Good at sports?: Not really
A good singer?: Yes
A good actor/actress?: Yes
A deep sleeper?: Yes
A good dancer?: Yes
Shy?: Sometimes
Outgoing?: Not often
A good storyteller?: Yes
Last words?: Is it over?


Where do you see yourself in 5 years?: Married and managing the casino
Where do you see yourself in ten years?: Married still
What season are you going to get married in: Spring
Place of honeymoon: Vegas
How many kids?: Two or three
Your profession: Casino Pit Boss
Future School: No thank you
Car of Your Dreams: Lambourghini
I Wanna Live: past 100


What is youre most prized and important possession: My laptop
When you wake up you: Hit the snooze button
Your mouse pad has on it: Shape of a cat
What is on the walls in your room: Miscellaneous paintings and art
Other Room: Nothing much
Thinking of right now: Finishing this bloody thing finally
What do you do that really pisses off your friends: Being disorganized
Do you have a job: Yes
After school/work you: Go home
If you were a crayon what color would you be?: Red
What makes you happy?: Getting money
Whats the next CD you're going to get?: Probably something from ABBA
Who do you consider good friends?: Michael, Sam, Tiff and people I know who read this
What do you like to do?: Vegas, golf, karaoke

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

No More Bets

I have a late shift at 11:15pm, but instead of supervising tonight I am dealing! It is a nice change from standing around and pacing and watching your tables. As a dealer you get to participate more. I have no idea what I'm be dealing but they're all fine with me.

In the meantime I'm watching The Amazing Race before getting ready for work. I love this show.

Monday, January 03, 2005

So Close

Well I ended up winning $750. I would have tied for second place (and won $1125 instead) but the New York Giants scored a touchdown with 10 seconds left in the game. Boo. It was so close, but hey, $750 is $750!

Work was hectic but what else is new. At times it almost seemed like management was "grooming" me to be the floor manager, could it be that I've already been accepted and they are just getting me ready? Who knows, it's all speculation at the moment.

Off to bed now, I'm having lunch with Glenn, and if I'm not too tired, I might go to Metrotown since I didn't go today.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Bad News and Good News

I didn't get first place in the football pool, but at the moment I am guaranteed third place overall, which is good for $750. There is one more game left in about 30 minutes, and if Dallas covers the spread, I will tie for second place, which means $1125 instead of $750. Wish me luck!

Dreaming of Money

It's 9 in the morning and I haven't slept yet. I had breakfast with some coworkers and just got home. I'm off to bed. When I wake up, I could be $4000 richer! The casino football pool ends this week, and currently I'm in 3rd place (which is still good for $750), one point behind 2nd place ($1500) and two points behind 1st place ($4000). It's a matter of who gets the most points this week, so we'll see.

Good luck to me.

Another One of Those Quiz Things

OK here's a fun little thing I got in an email from a friend. Have fun with it.

Follow the directions very carefully and do not cheat.
Make a wish before beginning the test, and answer the questions as you go along.

There are only four questions and if you see them all before finishing, you will not have honest results. Go down slowly and do each exercise as you scroll down. Don't look ahead. Get pencil and paper to write your answers as you go along. You will need it at the end. This is an honest questionnaire which will tell you a lot about your true self. Give an answer for each item.

1) Put the following animals in order of preference: Cow, Horse, Pig, Sheep, Tiger

2) Write one word that describes each of the following:

3) Thinks of someone different (who also knows you and is important to you) that you can relate to the following colours (do you repeat any answer twice; name just one person for each colour): Yellow, Orange, Red, White, Green

4) Finally, write down your favorite number and favorite day of the week.

Before continuing, repeat your wish.

1) The order you list defines your priorities in life.

Cow Signifies CAREER
Tiger Signifies PRIDE
Sheep Signifies LOVE
Horse Signifies FAMILY
Pig Signifies MONEY

2) Your description of dog implies your own personality.
Your description of cat implies the personality of your partner.
Your description of rat implies the personality of your enemies.
Your description of coffee is how you interpret sex.
Your description of the sea implies your own life.

3) Yellow: Someone you will never forget
Orange: Someone you consider your true friend
Red: Someone that you really love
White: Your twin soul
Green: Someone that you will re member for the rest of your life

4) You have to send this message to as many persons as your favourite number and your wish will come true on the day that you put. This is what the Dalai Lama has said about the Millennium - just take a few seconds to read it and think. Do not put away this message, the mantra will come out from your hands in the next 96 hours. You will have a very pleasant surprise. This is true, even if you are not superstitious.
Please do this. It is fascinating.


0-4 persons: Your life will improve slightly

5-9 persons: Your life will improve to your liking

9-14 persons: You will have at least 5 surprises in the next three weeks

15 or more persons: Your life will improve drastically and all thatyou have always dreamed will take shape.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Favorites of 2004 / Things to Look Forward to in 2005

Favorite Movie: The Phantom of the Opera (which I watched on December 30)
Favorite Song: She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5
Most Embarrassing Moment #1: 1) jumping on the table and dancing at a party
Most Embarrassing Moment #2: 2) dancing topless at another party
Proudest Achievement: finding my way back working at the casino, and as a supervisor (hopefully this will be replaced shortly by being promoted to relief floor manager


Most Anticipated Movie in 2005: Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith
Most Anticipated DVD in 2005: ABBA the Movie
Most Anticipated Purchase in 2005: new car

Welcome 2005

Well it's 12:37am on January 1, 2005 and I'm still at home. In the end, my friends all decided on their own activities and I guess for me, I opted for a peaceful night at home, chatting with friends and reminiscing with retro videos. In a way it was appropriate because with all the sad news in Asia it almost didn't feel right to go party. That's not to say I don't think people should have had fun. New Year's Eve only comes once a year. But this year peace and quiet were ideal for me.

I look forward to a hopefully better 2005. I still haven't heard about the floor manager position, but yes or no I'm flattered to have been considered. I still haven't heard from the eye specialist regarding my test (not until January 6) but que sera sera, whatever will be will be.

I'll probably head to bed early, then head to Metrotown for some January 1 shopping.

Wow, 42 minutes into the year and nothing's gone wrong yet....