Monday, August 30, 2004

Oops I Did it Again

Sunday started pretty badly as I was a few minutes late for work. Although I had calculated the bus schedule exactly so that I would get to work 20 minutes early, I did not calculate that I would forget my ID tag halfway during my trip. As a result I had to bus back and then take an ugly $40 bus ride to Coquitlam. Oh well.

Night time there was a staff party, another excuse to get drunk and make a move on Anna perhaps? As it was, there was a poker tournament there and who else would boot me but Anna herself. Then she had to go to work.

Meanwhile I got a little tipsy as usual and when Dancing Queen and YMCA came on, I decided to take off my top and start dancing (this sounds familiar doesn't it?). I think I'm getting a reputation for being pretty silly sometimes.

Sunday, August 29, 2004

All About the Benjamins

And so begins one of the toughest weeks of my life. After getting off of work at 11:45pm, my next shift begins at 10:30am on Sunday, followed by shifts of 3:30pm Monday, 4pm Tuesday, and graveyard shifts of 11:30pm Friday and 11pm Saturday, all in Coquitlam. This will majorly suck considering I don't have a car, but that's the consequences of being on the bottom rung of the supervisor ladder. That's OK, the money will be good.

I may or may not have time to frequently update my blog but I will try as much as possible (then again I wonder if anybody is actually reading my crap).

And in case anybody was wondering, Anna will also be working in Coquitlam throughout the week but I don't believe we have any overlapping shifts. Alas.....

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Straight Guy With a Queer Eye?

Strange, but lately I've noticed that I've been paying more and more attention to my appearance than I ever have (not that this is a bad thing). I've bought a lot of shirts lately for work, and now I realize it's important to buy ties that GO with the shirt (and whichever jacket/suit I choose). Changing a tie with a shirt may be a different combo, but it doesn't mean it's a nice looking combo.

I was rather impressed with the light green shirt and green-patterned tie that I came up with two nights ago. Now I even notice some of the ghastly color combinations that some of my coworkers wear to could they?

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Ho Hum

I was supposed to be supervising tonight, but one of the roulette dealers got ill and I had to replace her as a dealer, so again I was stuck on roulette. Two shifts totalling 18 hours and I must have spent 15 of them in the roulette pit. It gets so boring watching the same game, but that's what I get for being one of the few people who knows the game.

Anna wasn't there tonight, I will assume that she got sent either to Coquitlam or Richmond. I was too tired to have noticed her anyways.

Either today or tomorrow I'll have to do some shopping and get some shirts and ties and maybe those rimless eyeglasses I've bee thinking about.

Monday, August 23, 2004


Well perhaps one of the strangest nights at work occurred tonight. I made two very bad judgement calls which I won't get into detail here. I also got to work 2.25 hours of overtime and work the last 2 hours with NO BREAK. This may not seem like much, but casino policy for employees is to work one hour (sometimes 45 minutes) followed by a 15 minute break (which continues throughout the night). Anyways, I am so beat I can hardly think straight. But straight enough to say that Anna looked as beautiful as ever. But how do I get to know her better? She seems so untouchable at times.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Across the Crowded Room

Friday night I worked from 10:15pm-6:15am Saturday morning. And then, I worked from 2:15pm-10:15pm Saturday. Ouch! That triple espresso did wonders for me and somehow managed to get through the shift without any major problems. And the shift ended with the most beautiful vision, the lovely Anna walking through the door of the breakroom. She looked absolutely ravishing in her beige suit and lightly tinted hair. And that slight tinge of perfume. My God I sound like a little boy with his first crush. But she did look so beautiful.

My quest continues, I understand that it won't be easy to capture her heart, but I will try as hard as I can. I may win, I may lose, but either way I shall be gallant in the attempt.

Friday, August 20, 2004

Tomorrow is Another Day

Well Anna didn't show up (I think deep down I didn't expect her too) but it's only a small setback in my quest for her heart.

As for the karaoke, as usual it was a lot of fun! I got to sing my karaoke favorites: That's Why (Michael Learns to Rock), My Way (Frank Sinatra), How Deep is Your Love (Bee Gees) and some others. I downed a few beers but not enough to make me dance on the table. Afterwards Vandy and I went for a drive and talked about things. I guess I never realized it, but Vandy is one of my best friends in the world, and I owe her a lot for her advice. I wish her the best in her new position at the Coquitlam Casino.

Let's hope my hangover isn't as worse as the last one.

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Destiny Awaits (Maybe)

It's hours before the "big karaoke" night which I'm a bit pessmistic about. I'm almost sure that Anna won't be showing up but I guess that's OK. Ever since I went a bit overboard the last time I was drinking perhaps it's not a good idea to have her nearby when I start exhibiting strange behaviours. Nevertheless I'm sure she'll be on my mind a lot. And if somehow she happens to be there, then I will make the most of it.

To All The Girls I've Loved Before

I'm in a reflective mood this morning. On my walk home from work I started thinking about all the girls I've known that I've had a crush on so to speak (although in some cases I think I was actually in love). So for all those who have known me for a while (and even those who are interested/nosy), here is a list of all the members of the opposite sex who I have had so called feelings for...

Christine Yan -- One never forgets his first crush and this was it. Way back in 1983, it was French 12... seems like only yesterday. And to think I wasted 17 years of my life thinking that girls were icky. Christine changed all that, but just like that she was gone; something about graduating from High School.

Gloria Yan -- Anybody who's known me since High School knows that Gloria has been (and always will be?) the one that I will always remember. She's my Glory of Love, my Eternal Flame. There was a time when she was my best friend, as we'd share long phone conversations talking about relatively nothing. It was like we knew more about each other than anybody else knew. Perhaps the one big mistake in my life was to stop pursuing her when she was deep into her studies, but at least I can say I knew her. "It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all".

Genevieve Garcia -- Another friend who could never be more than that. We shared such wonderful times together, when the gang would go clubbing and just hanging out together. I remember the infamous 10-page letter that I wrote to her once when she was away in the Philippines. In that letter I probably poured my heart out more than I had ever done so before. And through it all, we remained friends.

Nami Fukasaka -- One of the few women who actually returned my affection. And even more strange was that I SHE was the one that had a crush on me. I guess I was so flattered that we were actually going out. No more details are necessary except that it is a good feeling to be loved, even if you do not feel the same for her.

Lily Chen -- Fast forward 10 years (quite the dry spell). We met through a mutual friend and have quickly become best friends. Yes, there was a time when I thought she was my destiny but it was too late, as she was engaged. Perhaps if I had met her years ago things would be different. But I'm so glad I've met my 007 girl.

And now we come to the present. Yes, there seems to be someone who is trying to get on this list, but it is too early to tell. Perhaps she will be forgotten shortly, or perhaps she will be the one to make me happy for the rest of my life. Who knows what the hands of fate will bring me?

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

No Means Yes?

Anna's playing hard to get.... she's "busy" on Thursday. So I'll have to poor on the charm at work tomorrow if I want to have my beloved at the karaoke.

Monday, August 16, 2004

And Then There Was One

"Love is a Many Splendored Thing

First of all, I think it's time I referred to #1 as Anna, because that is her name, and although she is #1 in my mind, it's silly to hide her name just because I'm scared she'll find this blog. Anna, if somehow you are reading this, then so be it. Now you know you have caught my eye, I hope you will consider a date with me.

As for "The Kid", all feelings for her have disappeared, but I'm sure we can be friends.

Meanwhile, back to my daily/nightly report. It was a rather uneventful night at work but at least I got to see the beautiful one. I even managed to sneak a few smiles at her when our eyes happened to meet "across the crowded room". There's something mysterious yet attractive about her, whether it's her innocence and quietness or just her beauty, it was difficult to concentrate at work sometimes.

I have to try to get somebody to work for me Thursday so I can ask Anna out....and hopefully she says yes! Stay tuned.

Sunday, August 15, 2004


Only about three hours of sleep after the drinking binge, then went to a family dinner where I managed to finish a glass of wine before working....not a good idea. It wasn't my best night at work because I just couldn't concentrate. And my beautiful #1 got called into the Richmond location so I didn't see her. Funny, "The Kid" was there and I barely talked with her. I guess the fad has worn out by now. I'm trying to get enough nerve to ask #1 out for the karaoke thing on Thursday. Wish me luck and remind me not to drink too much this time.

Saturday, August 14, 2004

Bartender...Gimme Another Drink

"You Drive Me Crazy"

Last night (well this morning from 6am-10am) we had a going away party for one of the casino managers who is transferring to another location. And what else do casino people do at parties but drink, drink, and then drink some more? I was behaving myself for a while, just eating food and limited to one beer. The reason for this was that #1 just happened to show up and for a while we were sitting beside each other. Hmm, she is such a quiet girl, didn't say much. We did joke around a little bit...and then I started to guzzle down rum and cokes. And then they put the TV on MuchMoreMusic and blasted the volume. And then Britany Spears (Crazy) came on and for no apparent reason I jumped on the table and started dancing...oops. Somebody started to unbutton my shirt and unbuckling my belt...hmm...and then somebody handed me $20 for no reason (so I ended up grabbing another drink). Meanwhile #1 moved away a bit to another table....oops. Guess I had three or four too many rum and cokes. Oh well, the quest continues, there's another party next week, but I haven't asked her out yet, maybe tonight.

And now I must hope my hangover is gone by 11pm as I must go back to work.

Friday, August 13, 2004

Life's a Bitch Sometimes

"What Have I Done to Deserve This?" -- Pet Shop Boys

Not the best day at work, it's frustrating watching people make the same mistakes over and over, even though they have been told the proper procedures. What's worse is that there are supervisors who don't know a lot of the procedures, and they in turn tell dealers the wrong things. Then when I tell them, they say they learned something else from another supervisor. Geez, where do they find some of these people?

Sorry, just ranting, I just want a good sleep hopefully. Too much stress....

Thursday, August 12, 2004

The Fever Returns Once Again

"I love to watch you dance Tony" -- Saturday Night Fever

How can I forget? My favorite movie of all time was on and ended just before I had to work (perfect timing). Yes, it's come to a point where I can pretty much act out the whole movie from being to end (as can a certain other good friend of mine).

Work First Fun Second

"Lead me on, tease me all night long" -- Lead Me On by Maxine Nightingale

Interesting night at work. I was supervising and whose table would I be supervising but the "mystery woman" (from now on she will be referred to as #1). It's a weird feeling; I'm attracted to her and yet my job is to be as strict and harsh as I can, because she was dealing roulette for the second night ever. She was making a lot of nervous mistakes, but what could I do but try to calm her down. The alternative was to bring out the whip (only figuratively of course) and be as mean to her as other supervisors may be, but that may kiss any chance I have of a possible relationship yadda yadda yadda. Otherwise it was a rather dull night at work. Now for some well-deserved sleep and then we'll see what the next day will bring. I'm sure Lily will call me for lunch in about four hours. Who needs sleep when the gorgeous one wants to have lunch?

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Two Girls?

"Here's looking at you kid" -- Casablanca

Got lots of advice regarding the "kid" and the "mystery woman". Funny how their names sound so familiar. Even though everything points to the "kid" being too young for me to consider pursuit, one never knows. Time will tell; at least I'll be back to work tonight so I can consider the options and possibilities.

It's nice to have friends that care and can help.

Tuesday, August 10, 2004


"If I am dreaming, then may I never sleep. If I am sleeping, then may I never awake" -- Karate Kid II

What was just an afternoon nap became such a wonderful time. It wasn't even sexual or anything, but "The Kid" and I were on a cruise just lying in the sun talking. It was so innocent, but so beautiful. I haven't had a dream like this for a while. What ruined this wonderful time was that I was just awakened by a phone call. Alas, maybe tonight?

Day Off

"May the Force be with you, always"

Been up since 1am with nothing to do but surf and listen to music, thinking about the loves of my life, wondering if I will find that special someone someday. Even if none of them end up as my mate at least they are my friends.

Monday, August 09, 2004

Same Shit Different Day

Movie quote of the day: "Love means never having to say you're sorry" -- Love Story

There seems to be a lot of infighting at work, I wonder what's going on. All I know from my years in the casino is to "Trust no one". At times it seems like everybody wants to stab your back. There are probably only two or three people at the casino who I consider my friend. The others are merely acquaintances, although I "pretend" to be their friend.

"Why can't we all just get along?"

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Another Day Another Love?

Movie quote of the day: "Hang on tightly, let go lightly" -- Croupier

Have I managed to find a member of the female population at work that is closer to my age range? I don't know much about her but I guess that's what dating is for (?). Now the question is if I want to proceed. Do I go with the "friends first" plan or just go for it? Going out is just as hard now when I'm 38 as it was when I was 18 (much harder in fact).

At least I have my love song CD's to guide me.

Saturday, August 07, 2004

Quote of the Day

"It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all"

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Life and Love

I've spent the last three hours listening to old classic songs from the 80's. I started with dance tunes and then turned to love songs to put me into another depressing mood. Why are almost all my friends happily married with children and I'm still by myself? Will I ever find my true love?

I'm at a crossroads now because there IS someone who has caught my eye and who I have spent the better part of each day thinking about. But is she too young for me? Is there such a thing? Time will tell.