On the eve of the busiest day of the year at the casino I have a chance now for some peace and quiet to reflect upon the last 365 days or so and what it has meant for me.
On the relationship side I am with a very understanding person who has put up with my torturous schedule and mood swings. Somehow we've managed to make it work, and although there are ups and downs, I guess that's part of a healthy relationship. I'm nowhere near perfect. I have a lot of things to work upon. But she is still beside me (well when I'm not working). She taught me to be more positive about life.
As for work, well I guess it's my other relationship. It's a relationship that I've had for more or less twenty years. I first met "her" thinking it would be an autumn fling but twenty years later I'm still stuck with "her". Sometimes "she" makes me happy and other times it's nothing but stress. It's funny, people ask if a relationship should be based more on love than on security. What's more important? I should be thankful I have a job in these tough financial times. Is there something better? Who knows. Of course I would rather be lying on a beach every day but realistically that won't happen unless I match all the lottery numbers.
In the meantime, I can say with my heart that I work with a wonderful crew, from the managers to the supervisors to the dealers. Sometimes we have to put up with the toughest of circumstances and I wish I could do more to make things easier. But all I can do is try to put a smile on everyone's face once in a while. I wish we could all be happier. I wish there was more that I could do.
To the wonderful people at Fraser Downs, I miss you all. I haven't done cards with Deryck in eons. I haven't looked across the track in a long time. I hope you all have a great holiday time.
Happy New Year to everyone.